In truth he was indeed happy but upon thinking that maybe Su Wan would hate the child that was in her stomach —— the child that belonged to him, Lin Yan couldn’t help but feel depressed. The child was the fruit of their love but here he was holding an abortive because he knew how much his wife would hate the child if she found out that she was pregnant with especially when she wasn’t ready.
” Oh, young man. You are finally here.”said the doctor as he trotted out of the kitchen with a bowl of what Lin Yan thought was medicine to retain the pregnancy and stabilize it. ” Here,help your wife drink the medicine.”
” I?” Lin Yan was surprised that the doctor was handing him the bowl of medicine, however he still took it unconsciously.
” Or else who? Me?”said the Doctor with a nasty temper. ” You did the ding dong, so you need to take care of your wife as well, its simple as that, what else do you need to understand about it?”
Lin Yan’s face flushed upon listening to the doctor’s words but then he thought that it was the right opportunity to sneak in the abortion medicine, if Su Wan lost the child while she was still unconscious, maybe she wouldn’t blame him. But just as he reached his hand to take the medicine out, he couldn’t do it—— he couldn’t sneak in the medicine to kill his own child, it would be a lie that he wasn’t looking forward to having a child with Su Wan and now that the child was here, killing it was something that he could not do it. No matter what.
In the end Lin Yan didn’t slip the medicine inside and diligently fed the pregnancy stabilizing medicine to Su Wan. Every single one of his actions were smooth and careful like he was taking care of a doll that was going to break any moment and what was more he was ever so careful about not touching Su Wan’s abdomen or to startle the child that was sleeping inside, he was so careful that everyone couldn’t help but gush that Su Wan was going to be spoiled rotten by him during the pregnancy.
Su Wan who felt something bitter and completely yucky in taste slid down her throat and snapped her eyebrows before she blinked them open. The first thing she saw was Lin Yan’s surprised and completely guilty expression and the next thing she saw was the happy faces of her family, who were looking at her like she was some sort of great treasure. Startled she sat up straight and frowned when the others hurried to help her up even Lin Yan who was sitting by her side, tightened his hold on her waist.
She turned her head to look at him but as if determined not to look at her in the eye, Lin Yan looked away almost immediately. Well, that was weird. Still frowning she turned to look at her family who were grinning like fools and asked, ” What’s wrong?”
Lin Chen snickered and so did the others causing Su Wan frown to turn even more deeper, Okay now they all were acting like stupid idiots.
” Is something wrong?” Though looking at their smiling faces, Su Wan was sure that whatever it was, it was anything but wrong.
The others glanced at each other before Madam Zhu who was standing outside walked in as Lin Yu and Lin Rui gave her the space to strode towards Su Wan. And the next thing she knew her eldest aunt had her hands planted on her shoulders as she gushed animatedly, ” Wan Wan you are going to be a mother!”
Lin Yan felt Su Wan stiffen in his arms and his heart that was beating violently against his chest dropped down to his stomach. He knew it, she already hated the child that was in her womb, if he asked her to keep it maybe she will agree to keep it but he will lose her forever.
” Moth…Mother? Then who is the——”
Su Wan didn’t ask but the others understood, in marriage where the wife was shared like this… this was a normal thing to happen. Madam Zhu patted her cheek and dotingly smiled, ” Who else but the one who is holding you in his arms.”
Su Wan stiffened and slowly very slowly turned to look at Lin Yan who was looking anywhere but her. Oh Damn….
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” You…” after returning to their home , Lin Yan and Su Wan were left alone by the rest of the family they thought that the two of them had some lovey doves thing to say to each other but when the two of them were left alone, they just sat side by side not knowing what to say to each other, it was after a very long time did Lin Yan spoke up and break the silence.
” Yes, what is it?” Even Su Wan who was usually chirpy didn’t know what to say at the moment, she was feeling all sort of emotions after finding out that there was a child growing inside her. She was happy , anxious and most importantly terrified.
Because of all her emotions that were running all over the place, her mind was completely blank and she couldn’t think straight. Thus, when Lin Yan spoke she just looked at him waiting for him to say something.
Lin Yan on the other hand didn’t look at Su Wan, not even once. With his fists clenched on his lap, he finally said the words that were lodged in his throat. ” You can abort that child, you know? I won’t blame you at all.”
