Lin Yan didn't want to act or say anything that might hurt Su Wan but he knew that she wouldn't back down without a fight, so he sighed and sat up straight, looking into her eyes was a physical torment at its worst but Lin Yan understood that he needed to face this, he weakly smiled and said: " you want something, Wan Wan?"
" Sorry, if I disturbed you," said Su Wan eyeing him cautiously as if trying to make something out of his expression. Something that might help her in understanding what was wrong with him but nothing, she couldn't get anything because his expression was a mask of complete calm " I wanted to talk to you, will that be alright?"
Lin Yan nodded trying to control his heart rate that was going totally out of control, as he looked at her and motioned her to go on.
" you dropped this while you were screaming for your life," said Su Wan as she unfurled his hands and placed the red string that he always tied around his wrist. After he nearly killed himself, his mother despite being sick when to the temple in the next village. It was a Temple where the devotee had to kowtow harshly on the stairs of the temple each time they took a step forward. His mother was worried about him being cursed or being haunted so she desperately tried to protect him in her own way, this red string what was she got after she finished kowtowing a hundred steps all the way up the mountain where the temple was situated.
He couldn't believe that he lost it, he has been wearing it for years ever since he was a teen but now the old string seemed to have given up. It was torn, most probably after so many years it's thread got frayed so much that they couldn't hold anymore but to think that it broke now when he needed the heavenly protection the most.
Lin Yan clasped the string in his hand and put it in his pocket, even though he could no longer wear it. He looked up and his gaze met with Su Wan who was eyeing him " is there anything else you want ?"
" Actually, yes," said Su Wan as she crossed her arms and sat on the stool next to his bed " I would like to know why exactly, a healthy, normal man started screaming like he was being butchered in the middle of a beautiful afternoon"
" that – that um…that's because -" damn what was he supposed to tell her " I was just trying to release my stress nothing more"
He thought that Su Wan who was eyeing him would blow up. Demand answers from him but instead, she just smiled, and not just smiled – she gave him a smile that made his knees buckle even though he was sitting on his bed. Wow, that was something new, he could still think of her as beautiful instead of thinking that she was as disgusting as Luo Xin – maybe he wasn't in as much trouble as he thought he was?
" Really?" said Su Wan
" yes, I am more of an outgoing type of guy, I don't like being trapped at the house. And because of the heavy snow that's exactly where I am trapped and I just got a bit frustrated and you know. . ." he trailed off, trying to look away from Su Wan's gorgeous face. He couldn't bring himself to lie to her when she stared at him like she knew he was a lying little bitch but she was still willing to pamper him. Never before did he feel like this, before Su Wan every woman was nothing but an undeniable work of an ass to him, no matter how attractive he would always find them ugly and unattractive but Su Wan was different. Even though he was scared, and repulsed by the idea of a woman being with him, touching him – he was still utterly drawn to Su Wan.
Su Wan raised her eyebrows like she knew that he was feeding her bullcrap and yet she didn't push him like she was giving him time to adjust and come out on his own " if you are that frustrated then maybe we should go on a walk or something? Why don't we -"
" No!" said Lin Yan refusing her suggestion at once, Luo Xin was out there keeping an eye on him. Who knows what she might do if she saw Su Wan with him, though he knew that there was a highly likely chance that she already knew about Su Wan. Lin Yan didn't want to give her an opportunity to hurt his wife " I mean it's too cold and your health is not great as well so why take a risk?"
" you mean to say that you are so bored you are actually screaming like a maniac, but still don't want to get out of the house and do something ?" asked Su Wan her eyes narrowing ever so slightly.
" that- that's sound about right"
" you do realise that every time you speak you are only further contradiction yourself, right? " mused Su Wan and Lin Yan nearly jumped like a rabbit with how he was shaking his leg due to his anxiety. Suddenly, Su Wan moves really closer to him, so that he could see nothing but her starry eyes.
" Really? I don't think so" Lin Yan wasn't willing to give in either, even though he was practically being sandwiched between the headboard of his bed and his wife.
Su Wan shrugged," you know you are looking very upset, Yan" her breath got against his cheek " and as your wife, I think I might like it if I could make you more comfortable" she reached for his cheek and cupped his face.
Lin Yan shivered unconsciously, he never knew that Su Wan eyes were as dark as an abyss. Somehow, they were gauging his soul out of his body and turning him into something else, as his breathing quickened.
But he couldn't touch her, he was afraid that his body might react opposite to how he wanted it to react.
" I…I am fine thank you" under her hypnotic gaze Lin Yan's will almost broke, he didn't know what to say when she was cupping his face, and tracing her fingers on his cheek like this " but if you want, I would like to buy a few new locks, can I do that ?"
" is that so? Are you trying to keep someone out ?" said Su Wan jolting him out of his thoughts at once. He looked away from her eyes and shook his head.
" of course, I don't, that's not – the old locks are too poor and -" he made a countable number of excuses and he knew that Su Wan could of course tell that because his response was a bit too vehement.
It wasn't that he didn't want to tell her but he was afraid of implicating her.
Su Wan narrowed her eyes, scrutinizing him like a criminal in charge, her stare was so pressurising that Lin Yan thought that he might be sentenced to death any second now . But didn't back down and eventually she stopped
.
"Alright Yan, I will take some money out and let someone buy a new lock for you."
