“I’ve always been slow to warm up to people, so it’s hard for me to like someone. But, since you’ve been wooing me for so long, I’ve decided to try dating you!”
Outwardly, I was smiling, but my heart was pleading, Su Qi, please let me fall in love with you, let me fall in love with you without hesitation, without any care…
Just like how I like Dongyu. Let me like you!
I want to… like you too.
Su Qi was silent for a few seconds.
I suspected that he was starting to feel troubled, so I said, “Is it too much? If it’s too much, let’s forget it!”
Then, I turned to leave.
Su Qi hugged me nervously from behind and quickly said, “No!”
“What?”
He turned me around and caressed my face, smiling brightly. “I won’t give up, as long as there’s a glimmer of hope! Xiachun, be my girlfriend!”
My tears fell again as I agreed with a smile.
I was serious too, really serious about trying to make things work with him.
He couldn’t feel my other emotions, and he seemed strangely excited and completely immersed in joy. He held my face and asked with a smile, “Then may I kiss my girlfriend now?”
Unlike the overbearing way he’d acted when we first met, he was now actually asking for my permission.
I looked into his eyes – they were exceptionally beautiful, like black jade agate. At this moment, they were so affectionate that they seemed to draw my soul away!
I was actually a little nervous to look directly into his eyes. Blushing, I lowered my head, pursed my lips, and nodded lightly with a faint smile. In the next second, he closed in on me and kissed my lips carefully, as if I was a precious treasure. Then, he lifted my chin, bent over, and kissed me again.
And I responded like a devout student, kissing him back the way he kissed me.
But as his kiss deepened, my heart became like a stagnant pool, unperturbed, without any ripples. It beat quietly with no echo.
His lips were soft and warm, different from Dongyu’s.
Dongyu’s lips were thin and slightly cold.
One was passionate like fire; the other was as cold as ice.
And they felt different!
I didn’t feel anything exceptional when Su Qi kissed me. My heart didn’t seem to be beating too hard either.
I couldn’t help but recall the times I kissed Dongyu. In the music room, in the grove at the bonfire party, we had a light taste of each other’s lips. At those times, my heart was beating so loud it seemed to burst my eardrums.
At those times, my heart pounded like thunder.
It was different.
I was losing track of how being in love should feel like, and which was the true rhythm of being in love.
All I knew was that I responded to him in all earnestness, but my heart was in so much despair that it was almost failing.
What was a kiss supposed to feel like?
…
My life turned upside down after I became Su Qi’s girlfriend.
Overnight, it seemed like the whole school knew about our relationship. Su Qi couldn’t wait to tell the whole world about it. The next day, the news spread across the campus.
Everyone knew I’d become Su Qi’s girlfriend.
Sitting in the classroom and walking across the field, I could feel the inquisitive, envious, jealous, judgmental looks that fell on me.
Su Qi was a well-known figure.
Because our school was very close to the number one key high school, and Su Qi came from a good family, he was handsome and tall, a Prince Charming of sorts in the opinion of most girls.
