"Hey Charlton, you okay? I think you need to see a physician. You look sick." Joshua commented after they have been dismissed in class.
Charlton shook his head, "I'm fine, thanks for asking. Anyway, I'll go ahead."
Joshua was about to comment again, but Kylo stopped him. "You should worry about yourself. Come join me in the library. I think you haven't even started writing the paper due tomorrow. See you tomorrow Charlie."
Charlton nodded his head and turned to leave.
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When Charlton arrived in his room, he slouched on his sofa and placed his forearm above his eyes. The last few days have been terrible. It has always been since they broke up, but instead of him recovering over time, it just got worse. His heart felt heavy, and he has been losing sleep. Many times, he had to physically restrain himself from trying to see Serena. He wanted to talk to her, spend time with her, and just give in to his feelings of wanting to be with her. However, he knew that he should not.
Just when he was able to get a wink of sleep, he heard someone ring the doorbell. Truthfully, he was in no mood to receive anyone, but he still had to stand up and open the door. When he did, it was only one of the dorm's employees who handed him a parcel that just arrived. He thanked the man as he closed the door.
The first thing he saw was a pouch containing the money and account details regarding the profit made from the fundraising, followed by the group picture taken last Sunday. More interested in the photo, he took a moment to appreciate all the smiling faces in it, but his eyes lingered on Serena's image. The more he stared, the more painful it became. In the end, he placed the photo down and looked at what else Edward sent.
The next thing he saw was the cover of the disc 'we are the world'. He took it out of the box but before he can inspect it, he noticed a blank cover at the bottom. Wondering what it was, he placed what he was holding down, and chose to open what that the blank cover was containing.
Inside, he saw a letter and a disc. Curious of what it was about, he opened the letter.
Lord C,
First, I want to apologize for recording the song in the disc without your permission. I made only 2 copies of it, one of them is currently with you, the other I sent to the correct recipient of the song. Hehe… before you start cursing me, do hear me out.
I know I have no right to meddle, but I could not, in good faith, let you commit the biggest mistake you could ever make in life. You know, they say that you only live once, so you have to do it right. But that is false. In reality, it is only that we die once, but we live every day. And believe me, it's hard to live a life where every single day, you question the what ifs. It happened to me, and I don't want it to happen to you. For in the end, we will only regret the chances we didn't take.
By the way, I understand your sentiment while listening to your song. But I want you to know that you are capable of so much more than you think you are. If you don't find yourself deserving of her now, then work on yourself! It is your duty as a man to do so. Do not let your current position hinder you. Also, you don't have to go through it alone. Have you ever asked for her opinion? Ugh, how I wish someone told me these words in the past.
So, get up, gather your strength, and go get your girl! Okay, maybe that's quite exaggerated, but anyway, it's your life, you have the final say, and it's up to you what action you wish to take from now on.
In any case, I wish you both the best in life without regrets weighing you down.
Sincerely yours,
E.E.
P.S. I already disposed of the original copy, but would you consider having that song contracted with our company? I also asked her about her song by the way… Anyway aside from that, do consider the offer I gave you last time too.
Charlton did not have to play the disc to know what was in it. His hands trembled as he let Edward's words sink. Then he started laughing while at the same time his eyes shed some tears. Instead of stressing over what Edward did, he felt like he was finally able to breathe again.
He has been so conflicted, so torn, and he did not know what to do. His head kept telling him no, but his heart has long been swayed, and now with Edward giving him a push, he finally realized what he should do. What he should have done all along.
He wants what is best for her, that much is true. Yet, Edward's words lit up something inside him and shook him to his very core. He may not be the best choice for her now, but he can be.
Suddenly, he has been invigorated. With renewed hope, the light in his eyes returned and a real smile emerged from his face. Then the intense need to see her, to hold her, to be with her came. This time he did not stop himself from wanting.
He wondered where she was. Then he recalled that Edward also sent her that disc. Then he started to panic. What if she thinks that he's already letting her go completely? What if she accepts that as his goodbye? No, he won't allow that to happen. He was never letting her go again.
He looked at the time, it was already 6 in the evening. It was a little late, but the need to see her was so strong that he could not wait a second longer. Though being a little conscious, he still had enough sense to brush his teeth before leaving his room.
Anyway, other than that, he did not even change out of his uniform. He ran towards the ladies' dormitory. When he arrived, it was by luck that other than the receptionist, no one was at the lobby because it was already time for dinner.
Charlton slowly approached the receptionist, thinking of how he could ask her about Serena without revealing too much. However, before he can say anything, the receptionist first spoke.
"Ah Lord Charlton! Lady Serena left a few minutes ago and asked me to inform you that she's waiting in the music room for your appointment. Are you about to work on a new song? I'm so excited… ah! Sorry I might be keeping you for too long. Ok, goodbye!"
Charlton was stunned. Again, she was a step ahead of him. Nonetheless, being polite, he smiled and thanked the receptionist. When he was able to step out of the lobby, he began to run.
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TBC
PS hope you all love these 2 chapters and look forward to chapter 160. Hehe
