“But I am willing to use my best posture and style to accompany you for life. It doesn’t matter if you don’t mind Yan’er, I still want to look my best around you.” Di Cang’s sweet words were honey to the ear, leaving those females nearby sour and grouchy from jealousy.
“Oh right, I was dreaming just now. I saw two Xiachens in there arguing with each other. One is the Xiachen who always accompanied me, the other is one I never met before. It hurts me inside when I saw him like that, saddened and angry.”
Di Cang’s hand stalled for a second when the topic was brought up. It’s obvious he knows the reasoning and why such a creature would appear in his wife’s dream.
“You know what’s going on, right?” Bai Yan catches on and pressed for an answer.
“……”
It took a while for the protective husband to reply, but he did and it wasn’t pleasant.
“Do you still remember that dream where you died while being still pregnant?”
A touch of pain filled the lady’s heart at the mention.
“The child died before he was born so it left a resenting grudge in his soul. When reincarnated, the grudge will follow him.”
In other words, Bai Xiachen only had one soul and not two like some would presume, but because of that tragic death in his previous life, the resentment followed suit and created two differing personalities.
“Because of hatred, his strength is abnormally strong, but it’s also because of that hatred that he cannot control that part of himself. I originally wanted to use my powers to subdue that wisp of grudge for a while, but….” In order to reassure his wife, the man inches closer to act as support, “He can no longer be provoked again, otherwise he will lose control completely.”
Tensing up with unease: “Then what are we going to do about Xiachen?”
“Don’t worry Yan’er, that resenting grudge doesn’t have a soul of its own so he can’t replace our boy. If he does anything to Xiachen then he too will suffer the consequences. However, I’m only worried about the grudge occupying his body. I have to find a way to make it disappear forever!”
Disappear forever?
Bai Yan’s complexion went visibly whiter at the notion. She hasn’t forgotten the intense pain and grievance in the dark Xiachen’s face when they met.
“Yan’er, I know you’re reluctant to do that, but a wisp of grudging resentment doesn’t have a soul, meaning it’s not an actual lifeform. If it was otherwise, I wouldn’t take this route either.”
Shaking her head in disagreement, Bai Yan clings onto her husband’s sleeve: “There must be another way. I saw how much sadness there was in his eyes, how can I abandon him when I couldn’t protect him properly before? He’s still my child regardless of what he has become.”
Even if he doesn’t have a soul, even if there is no life, even if he’s only some sort of resenting grudge, he still called me Mother….
Seeing the anxious face from his wife, Di Cang knew he couldn’t say no. With a faint smile: “Okay, we will find another way. I’m sure there’s some method to please everyone.”
