His love should have been for her.
They should have been together and happy during their lifetimes.
Lin Xuanji looked at the man’s handsome and chiseled face. Was it like this?
Did she still love him?
“There’s no point discussing about whether I love you or not. My time… has come to an end.”
Her time… had come to an end…
She laid in his strong arms weakly and lifelessly. Her body felt icy-cold. Although her ravishing looks remained, her life was gradually slipping by her.
“How much time do you still have?” he asked in a hoarse voice.
Lin Xuanji shook her head. “I don’t know… on the 30th of every month, the toxins will act up tremendously within my body. I can only take the Gelsemium elegans and fall into a deep sleep after that. There will be a lighted red candle in the room. When the candle flame eventually goes out, I won’t wake up anymore.”
It was like this?
It was like this!
There would be one day when she would never open her eyes again, in the company of everyone.
Lu Jinwen thought about what date it was. It was only the 3rd today and there was still a long time until the end of the month. He carried her. “We’re going home now. There will be a way! I’ll definitely find you a compatible heart. When I’ve found it, you’ll be alright!”
“Lu Jinwen,” Lin Xuanji restrained him gently. “Take me into the car. I won’t go home with you. I want to send Mosheng home. I want to keep him company on his last journey.”
Lu Jinwen froze. He had almost forgotten about Jun Mosheng. She had made a promise with Jun Mosheng for the next life. She even wanted to give all the time that she had left now to Jun Mosheng.
Then what about him?
What should he do?
“I’ll go with you to Country Z…”
“No need,” Lin Xuanji interjected. “I’ve owed Mosheng so much this lifetime. He abandoned his country for me and he did not even have a descendant after his death. I want to keep him company, just the two of us. Don’t disturb us.”
It was like this…
So in the end, it was like this…
“Ha.” Lu Jinwen forced out a hoarse laugh from his throat. His voice was bloodshot and two drops of tears fell onto his face. “Xuanji, I know I can’t keep you by my side now, but… can I plead you to not be so cruel to me? How long are you going to keep him company? Will you be coming back? When will you come back? If you cant survive the 30th of this month, you are not planning to… even see me for the last time?”
She knew. She ought to know that he wished he could be with her together, and that he did not want to separate from her anymore.
But she wanted to leave with Jun Mosheng.
She did not allow him to tag along.
She wanted him to remain in Capital.
But would she come back again?
Lin Xuanji closed her eyes gently and did not answer his question. She merely said, “Carry me onto the car.”
Carry her onto the car…
She wanted him to personally send her off.
Even if he did not know if this parting would be forever?
Lin Xuanji was too cruel…
Lu Jinwen gradually got up and carried her gently onto the President’s car beside Jun Mosheng. Jun Xiwan got up and closed the door.
The President’s car started moving gradually.
Lu Jinwen raised his hand and knocked on the car window. “Xuanji…”
It was silent inside and the car window did not roll down. He could not peer through the black shield of the car windows.
Knock knock. He continued to knock on the car windows persistently. He wanted to speak to her.
He only wanted to say one sentence to her.
But the car window did not roll down.
The President’s car was gradually moving faster. He started to run along the car while knocking on the window. “Xuanji, I’ll wait for you. I’ll always wait for you.”
He believed that she had heard him.
He would always wait for her.
The President’s car sped away and disappeared from his vision soon after.
Gone, she had gone.
Lu Jinwen stood on the spot for a long time. He watched as the car disappeared from eyes blurred with unshed tears. He had finally released the only thing that he had been clutching tightly in his palm all this time.
It was not that he could not keep her by his side. He had thousands of ways of doing so, but she definitely would not like it. This time, he wanted to let her go and do something that she wanted to do. Was she smiling at him?
The him from the past would never have imagined that there would be a day he would give her up to another man.
…
The East Duke was captured and brought back to Country A by Tang Chenyi. Everyone had left. In the middle of the night, Butler Ye rushed to the villa with a doctor.
There was a gunshot wound on Lu Jinwen’s shoulder and the bullet had not been extracted. The moment he returned, he had locked himself in his room.
“Old Madam, Sir is not willing to come out. If he still doesn’t receive treatment, I’m afraid there will be some damaging effects to his shoulder.” Butler Ye told Old Madam Lu.
Old Madam Lu sat on the sofa in the living room. The servant brought over a cup of tea, and she drank a mouthful of tea before replying, “Just wait. He will definitely come out. He’s now paying the consequences of all his sins. I can’t help him.”
“Yes, Old Madam.”
…
In the room.
It was pitch dark in the room and the light was not turned on. The curtains were drawn and the bright moonlight shone into the room. Lu Jinwen was sitting on the goat’s fur carpet and leaning lazily against the headboard. He took out his wallet and pulled out a photograph.
He had kept this photograph for many years.
It was a photograph of Lin Xuanji in her youth.
He looked down and his calloused finger caressed every beautiful feature of hers. They had known each other for so many years but he only had this photograph of her. They did not even have a photograph together.
This photograph was even taken from Lin Xuanyin. Both sisters had many photographs together, and he had cut away Lin Xuanyin’s picture and thrown it into the rubbish bin, before placing Lin Xuanji’s picture into his wallet.
Lu Jinwen sat quietly. There was not a sound in the room, and there was an oppressive loneliness in the silence.
When he was younger, he enjoyed the peace from being above everyone, but gradually, he felt increasingly lonely and had difficulties sleeping at night.
He was lacking someone.
Many years ago, she had jumped from the platform after consuming the Gelsemium elegans and he had followed suit. He could not locate her in the vast ocean, and from that day onwards, there was a void in his heart.
He loved her so much, but he could no longer love her.
Lu Jinwen knitted his brows and gently kissed her forehead in the photograph. Xuanji, you will return, won’t you?
…
The door opened and Lu Jinwen walked out.
“Sir.” Butler Ye’s eyes lit up. “Please allow the doctor to treat the wound on your shoulder.”
Lu Jinwen sat on the sofa in the living room. The doctor cut open his shirt and extracted the bullet successfully. Though his face was a little pale, he remained calm and composed when he spoke, “Butler Ye, I have some matters for you to handle.”
