630 Regret
Thinking about it, Yan Qingyun revealed a look of longing. If that was the case, what kind of life would it be?
He would be the son-in-law of the Qi family and be valued by General Qi. His career would be smoother. Wasn’t that a wonderful thing?
However, after thinking about it, he laughed at himself. He was evil. Would he be willing to only have Qi Xinyu as his wife?
He wouldn’t, then what would he do? He would raise his mistresses and they would also have children. He would still use all kinds of underhanded methods. With General Qi’s love for his only daughter, they wouldn’t let him off.
At that time, what would he do? He was so good at calculating. He would use Qi Xinyu and threaten her with the child. The husband and wife would never be able to live in peace because he had an ulterior motive. Hence, no matter what path he took, he would walk towards this ending.
He would not admit that he was in the wrong. At that time, he would hate the children with good characters. He would think of ways to deal with these children, even if it meant losing their lives!
That was the kind of man he is. A clumsy, despicable man.
It was really unfortunate that Qi Xinyu had chosen him among so many good men.
How did he become like this bit by bit?
He thought about the information he had found. Su Sanlang’s parents were also bad people. But why were his children able to form a cohesive family in such a difficult situation?
The Su family was also a poor family. Su Chong and Su Hua had seen the fickleness of human nature and hypocrisy. Why were they still pure and principled? Why didn’t they take revenge on such evil grandparents, uncles, and aunts? With Su Chong and Su Hua’s current status and achievements, revenge was easy.
No, no, no. Even if they did not rely on their current strength, they would have the strength to take revenge on those who had harmed them before this, including those fake and hypocritical villagers. However, not only did they not take revenge, they even benefited the entire village.
They were also from a poor family. How could they still stay true to their hearts? He, on the other hand, gradually distorted his heart and gradually wanted people to be afraid of him. He wanted them to regret treating him like that in the past and gradually became determined to take revenge.
Why? Yan Qingyun really wanted to ask, but it was a pity that he couldn’t speak now and couldn’t move his hands. He was such a fake person. In the past, he couldn’t ask because he was fake. Now, he didn’t have a chance to ask even if Su Chong and Su Hua came to see him.
He only wanted to die as soon as possible, but he didn’t die. It made him have all kinds of thoughts and suffer repeatedly.
Unable to eat or drink, his body felt like it was on fire. He was hungry and cold, constantly waking up memories that he had long forgotten.
The mental pain and torture made him wish he was dead.
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Su Sanlang and Madam Zhao left the Yan Manor.
Su Sanlang tightened Madam Zhao’s cloak and held her slightly cold hand as they walked home.
A thin layer of snow covered the entire capital. The streets were empty, and the snow was still falling.
After walking for a long time, Su Sanlang said gently, “Darling, don’t be sad. You’ve already done very well. Don’t be sad because of what he said. Chong and Hua are sensible children.”
“They’ve already formed their own families. Even if they think more about their own families in the future and have grudges or whatever, I believe they can teach them well. In the future, they’ll be passed down for countless generations. It’s impossible for every generation to be very friendly, but when we’re together, we’ll still be a united big family.”
Su Sanlang firmly believed this in his heart. He knew better than anyone how his children had helped each other grow up. He believed that no matter what they encountered in the future, they would not forget their once close brotherhood.
Su Sanlang was afraid that Madam Zhao would be sad. He held Madam Zhao’s hand tightly. They had been together for more than twenty years.
Madam Zhao smiled and nodded. She replied softly, “Sanlang, I’m not sad because of Lord Yan’s words. I’m just a little melancholic. How can one not have any regrets in life?”
She was a very reserved and sensitive person. She understood the emotions that Yan Qingyun’s complicated gaze wanted to convey.
Now that Yan Qingyun had reached this position, why would he have anything to regret?
How could one not have any regrets in life?
Yan Qingyun knew how to scheme and was very smart, but he also had things he regretted.
Madam Zhao thought of herself. What she regretted the most in her life was that she was too weak. Because she was not strong enough, she did not protect her children well and made Su Chong and Su Hua suffer for so many years. If she had Yan Qingyun’s cunningness, she would not have fallen to such a state.
She was clearly a person in pain herself. Seeing others in pain made her feel uncomfortable.
“Darling, I don’t know what it means to have no regrets in other people’s lives, but in my life, there are many regrets. However, I think the most important thing is when people will understand what kind of person they want to be.”
Su Sanlang glanced sideways at Madam Zhao. He reached out to brush the snowflakes from Madam Zhao’s hair and looked at her streaks of white hair with a gentle gaze.
Madam Zhao could feel his gentleness. Su Sanlang rubbed Madam Zhao’s hands and held her hand as they continued walking. He said calmly, “Sometimes, I think that if I had understood it earlier and had broken my expectations, you would have suffered less. Perhaps we wouldn’t have had to go that far back then. Actually, I thought about it. There were many other solutions. It’s just that none of us could have thought of it at that time.”
“Sometimes, we can’t clearly understand what we can do and how to do it better. We all stubbornly walk the path we think is right. We’re the same, and so were our parents.”
Many times, when Su Sanlang recalled the past, he would be afraid. In fact, if he had been tough enough back then, he and Madam Zhao would not have been forced to that extent. At that time, even in court, he was in the right.
However, he could only think of these possibilities after everything was over. At that time, he could not think of these things.
Therefore, he felt that no matter what one chose in their life, they were destined to have regrets. A clear-headed person was precious no matter what.
“Sigh…”
Madam Zhao sighed softly. She leaned towards Su Sanlang and felt a little more at ease.
She smiled. “Sanlang, no matter when, as long as you are by my side, I will feel at ease.”
She was emotional. Her emotions came and went quickly. Su Sanlang understood her. Nothing was more precious than this. Her heart gradually calmed down.
Yes, no matter how one walked down the path of life, there would be irreparable regrets. As long as there was someone to accompany, no matter how difficult it was, it would be sweet.
When they returned home, the couple quietly returned to their room. Su Sanlang took a handkerchief and cleaned up the snow in Madam Zhao’s hair before the two of them fell asleep again.
