Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios
Tuoba Gucheng stepped forward to hold her hand and said, “Okay.”
Lin Shishi beamed with joy at the instant that he agreed.
“Hubby, may I ask you a question?”
“Go ahead.”
“May I take a look at that camera in the safe? I’m very curious about it,” she requested.
Gazing at her, Tuoba Gucheng answered, “It’s just a camera, what’s there to be curious about?”
“May I take a look, then?” The more Tuoba Gucheng refused, the more she wanted to know about it.
“No, go back inside,” he refused.
“The more you don’t want me to see it, the more curious I am.”
“Keep being curious then.” He had no plans to coax her and instead exited the office right away.
Noticing that he seemed to be a little infuriated, Lin Shishi felt rather peeved and ill at ease. Thus, she hurriedly chased after him.
Upon returning to their bedroom, Tuoba Gucheng proceeded to take a shower while Lin Shishi lay in bed and allowed her imagination to run wild.
What kind of photos and videos would a man be secretive about?
Could it be that of a woman’s?
But I’ve never heard of him fancying any other woman before, and neither have I heard of him having any former girlfriends.
Did I guess incorrectly?
Feeling troubled and vexed, she could not come up with a possible explanation even after Tuoba Gucheng had come out of the shower.
Tuoba Gucheng lay down in bed while wearing a bathrobe and placed his arms around his own waist.
“Hubby…”
“Go to bed,” said Tuoba Gucheng, who did not wish to speak to her at all.
“You’re always so busy from day to night, and you’ve been going to all the cities and provinces in the nation recently. Ever since you returned, you’ve been sleeping in the study for so many nights in a row and I barely got to see you. Now that we finally have some time to talk, don’t you want to chat with me? I often feel empty and insecure whenever I don’t see you,” said Lin Shishi, tearing up incessantly.
“Why are you insecure?”
“What if… what if you fall in love with another woman?” Lin Shishi said half-jokingly.
“I was just busy with national affairs. It’s not like I went to look for another woman. If you weren’t pregnant, I would’ve had to bring you to attend some events anyway, but it’s inconvenient for you to move about, isn’t it?” he said calmly.
Lin Shishi felt much more relieved upon hearing his words of reassurance. “I was just kidding. Besides, there are cameras watching you everywhere you go, how would you get the chance to go on rendezvous with other women?”
Tuoba Gucheng said, “Don’t keep focusing all your attention on me or you’re going to be really drained. Whenever I’m not around, you should just read some books, grow some flowers, and pick up foreign languages. Aren’t those great pastime activities? You get to kill time while improving yourself at the same time. I heard that all you do at home is sleep and watch television dramas. Those brainless idol dramas are only going to make you paranoid and worried unnecessarily.”
“Women love watching those drama series because they’re displeased with their other halves in their real lives. Can’t men just dote on their wives like those male leads in drama series? I want to be like the female leads in drama series and enjoy the unconditional love given by the male leads.”
“All you see is the endless and unconditional love that the male leads shower the female leads with, but do you see the reality portrayed by those dramas?”
“What reality?”
“The male lead is deeply in love with the female lead.”
Lin Shishi immediately turned as pale as a sheet. Is he indirectly telling me that he doesn’t shower me with love and affection simply because he doesn’t love me at all?
Or am I overthinking?
“You have a point. A man will shower a woman with unconditional love and endless affection only when he truly loves her. Why would you want to dote on someone and give them the best you can offer when you don’t love them at all? Take you and me, for example.”
After a moment of silence, Tuoba Gucheng said, “I guess we didn’t have a choice to oppose the engagement when we got married at the start. I’m giving you the chance now to reconsider marrying me.” His words shattered her heart completely.
She sat up straight and asked in disbelief, “Do you mean you’ll allow me to abort the child and divorce you?”
“I’ll allow it if that is your desire.”
Utterly disappointed, Lin Shishi took a deep breath and said, “Tuoba Gucheng, do you know what you’re talking about right now? You’re actually allowing me to abort the child and divorce you? I know you don’t love me, but I can’t believe you don’t love our unborn child either. When I saw how happy you were while carrying Sis Xiaoning’s son that day, I thought you really liked children. Yet, you…”
“I was just giving you an option. I didn’t say that you must do that.”
“The very act of giving me this option just goes to show that… there are a lot of issues.” Lin Shishi turned to face away from him and burst into tears. She continued, “Could you tell me honestly, did you adore any other woman before we got married?”
Tuoba Gucheng closed his eyes and switched off the lights, not answering her question at all.
Lin Shishi was filled with grief and disappointment. “Tell me,” she urged, no longer able to fall asleep.
He remained silent, as if he had already fallen asleep. Lin Shishi knew that he was definitely not asleep and simply did not want to answer her.
The more she dwelt on it, the more aggrieved she felt. She soon began bawling loudly in agony.
Tuoba Gucheng was beyond frustrated and switched on the lights again. He then sat up and said, “Does it really matter that much whether or not I fancied anyone in the past?”
“Of course it does!” She sat up straight and yelled at the top of her lungs, “I want to know! Can’t you just tell me? The more you behave like this, the more I’ll suspect that you did. If you didn’t, what’s so difficult about saying that you didn’t!?!”
“I didn’t fancy anyone before we got married. Is that enough?” he answered.
“I refuse to believe you!”
An icy cold stare formed in Tuoba Gucheng’s eyes as he said harshly, “I’ve been treating you in a courteous and polite manner ever since we got married. You also understand that I don’t love you, so what’s the point of asking me again and again? This is a fact that cannot be changed, regardless of whether or not there’s any woman I fancy. I didn’t actually want to tell you these but you made me do it.”
Upon hearing him say that he didn’t love her, Lin Shishi broke down in despair and wept even louder. “But I’ve already fallen in love with you, why can’t you fall in love with me too? No wonder you’ve never gotten intimate with me again ever since I got pregnant. You don’t even kiss me at all. Why are you so cruel to me? I’m your wife and I’m carrying your child right now!”
Tuoba Gucheng took a deep breath and said coldly, “Are you finished yet?”
Taken aback by his response, Lin Shishi stopped crying and answered in disgruntlement, “Yes.”
“Then go to bed.” He then lay down.
Lin Shishi bit her lip and turned to look at him before lying down too.
Neither of them said anything.
Lin Shishi did not sleep a wink and instead spent the whole night thinking about her marriage. She then figured that he was right about her being aware that he did not love her.
Thus, there was no point harping on it.
Even if there’s someone he fancies, I’ll still be his lawful wife, wouldn’t I?
Nonetheless, she still felt rather displeased and refused to accept her fate.
I’m pretty and have a great figure. Even though I’m pregnant right now, my limbs are still very slender and thin.
