After that dinner, Lily thought Qin Chuan would not have the courage to see her again. She was wrong.
The very next day, Qin Chuan went to see Lily alone in the mansion. It was something that he felt he needed to do before leaving Hong Kong to talk to Su Ma. Surprisingly, Lily did not refuse to see him.
“This is a very beautiful house,” Qin Chuan eyed the enormous mansion in front of them. His gaze shifted towards Lily’s humorless expression. “I wanted to apologize for what I did last night.” His gaze darted towards the pool next to them as he let out a sigh. “It was a mistake.”
“What was?” she asked.
“Cornering you like that. I know it was supposed to be a family dinner. I — I just thought we are all mature enough to handle the situation.”
“Are you here to apologize or to tell me that I am not mature enough to cope?” she lifted an eyebrow at the absence of emotion in Qin Chuan’s voice. Really? The man showed himself her to call her someone immature?
Disbelief flashed in Lily’s eyes as an evil thought clouded her mind.
“It wasn’t like that.” Qin Chuan frowned. He met Lily’s eyes. “I just want you to be more reasonable. Be more logical.”
“Explain.”
Qin Chuan pursed her lips at Lily’s authoritative tone. He instantly wondered if Lily’s words last night about cutting him off was true. “At first the only reason why I wanted to get close to Su Ma was that she looked a lot like Bec. I mean… I made some research. Some people can look the same, similar. So I thought… why not? There is really nothing wrong with getting close to someone that looked like the woman that you loved.”
Lily folded her arms across her chests as she gave Qin Chuan a blank look. Last night, she and Zhou Jingren had a lengthy conversation about the matter. In the end, they concluded that what Lily did was right. Her mental health is still the most important, especially now that she is pregnant with their child.
Cutting off someone that could potentially cause her stress and more problems were only right.
“Well… I was wrong. Su Ma is… kind and gentle. She is both funny and stern. She is also very hardworking. Falling for her was really easy.” Qin Chuan added. “I know you are still affected because of how she looks. But… our hearts really cannot choose who we fall in love with.”
“Silly,” Lily responded. “It’s a chemical reaction in our brains. Of course, we can’t dictate who we fall in love with.” Her words instantly made Qin Chuan nod. “However, we can choose who we invest these emotions. We chose who we spend our time with. We chose who we date. At the end of the day, it still boils down to our choices.”
“You can’t stop yourself from falling. But you can always choose to avoid situations where you might fall in love with someone.” Lily added. “I am not blaming you. Seeing a person who looks like your dead beloved should have some reactions in your brains.”
��If you don’t blame me, then why the hostile reaction?” he asked, his tone calm. He already thought that it was only because Lily was highly emotional as the result of her pregnancy. “Lily… listen.” He leaned towards her. “I — I was not there when you grow up and I understand why you are distant. However, I only wanted to get close to you and even Yuanfeng. I want to become a part of your lives.”
“I never expected that I would meet someone like Su Ma.” Qin Chuan added. “To be honest, I never thought that I would still like someone as much as I liked your mother. This is not a part of my calculations. This is not a part of my plans. I — I just hope that you could give a chance.”
“A chance for what?” she hissed before quickly calming herself down. “I already told you… I don’t want to associate myself with you anymore.”
“Just this once.” Qin Chuan uttered in a gloomy voice. “Just let me prove that I am not making the wrong decisions this time. Su Ma is a kind woman, and I want you to see that.”
Lily stared at her father’s distressed face. She thought about her conversation the other night with Zhou Jingren. His suggestions about seeing a specialist that could help Lily with the trauma from her mother’s death echoed inside her head.
She knew Zhou Jingren only wanted the best for her. And for that, she owed it to him, herself, and to their child to overcome the emotions that she still has about that accident.
“Alright,” a smile slowly made its way into Lily’s lips. “By her reaction last night, I would presume that she doesn’t know I am pregnant?” she asked.
“Your pregnancy is a secret. I never told anyone about it. Not even Su Ma.” Qin Chuan uttered. Lily’s pregnancy is hers to announce.
“And… you still haven’t told her about my mother and everything that happened in the past?” she confirmed. Again, her father shook his head. Seeing this, Lily continued, “Good. Then… I don’t want you to reveal anything about my personal life to her. Or… what happened to the past. That includes my mother.”
Qin Chuan frowned. He wanted to ask Lily why she wanted to do this, but he decided against it. This was Lily’s decision and to avoid more trouble Qin Chuan decided to give in to her demands. “Alright,” he nodded. All he wanted is to have the chance. A slight chance to prove that he was right in following his emotions this time.
Lily gave a satisfied nod. She then stood from her seat. “I am a bit tired. I want to rest. Please excuse me.”
Qin Chuan reluctantly nodded. What else could he say? Lily already turned her back on him and started walking towards the mansion. “Someone will escort you out of the property.” He heard her utter, almost lazily as she walked away from him.
Disappointment laced Qin Chuan’s eyes. In the past few months, Lily had become a little open to him. She even let him attend her wedding. It was obvious that she had started to open up to him. However, now… her coldness was enough to freeze him.
Determination flashed in his eyes. Lily was only like this because of her mother. But, this will all change once he could prove that Su Ma is not dangerous and that being with her was his… destiny.
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