“I don’t agree with your plan.” Zhuo Jingren said, his face blank as he watched Lily brushed her teeth. “Leave him to the orphanage and have some other couple to adopt him.”
“Why? The child is innocent. Don’t you think it’s unfair for us to just leave him alone to face the world after what we did to his parents?” Lily asked. She stared at him through the mirror.
“If you wanted to adopt the child because you feel guilty then it is better for you to just stop your plan against Qin Fei and Xuan Hui. The child is innocent, yes. But you should have thought of this before giving the evidence to the police.” He sighed as he stared at her intently. Lily wanted to be a mother, it was only normal for her to have some soft spot for infants. This was something that Zhuo Jingren understood. “Your emotions… never let it overpower your intelligence.” He added.
A tinge of disappointment instantly flashed on Lily’s eyes before she lowered her head and finished brushing her teeth.
Then without saying anything, she left the bathroom and lay on the bed. Zhuo Jingren followed her and watched as Lily turn off the lights of the table lamp that was next to her. She closed her eyes without saying a single word to him. In response, he shook his head in helplessness. This should be the first time that they had a misunderstanding.
Funny how this misunderstanding was caused by the child of the people who wanted to bring them down. He sat on the bed and held his hand, wanting to touch her hair but she stopped midway and withdrew his hand. He understood Lily’s point. However, Zhuo Jingren feels like this was not the right decision at all.
He lay next to her and turned to face Lily’s back. Zhuo Jingren had been in the orphanage. He grew up in a place where kids- unfortunate kids like him and Bei Tian grow up. He had experienced a lot of things, a lot of difficulties. After being adopted by his Japanese father, Zhuo Jingren made it his mission to find out who his real parents were.
With the help of his father, he was able to trace his lineage. He was able to trace the past and everything that lead him to be left at the orphanage. He was also able to find out that he and Bei Tian were related after all. He found out why his mother left him and no matter what his mother did, he still sympathized with her.
This was the thing that he does not want to happen to that child. If Lily would inform the child about his parents, he would still end up sympathizing with them. He would end up hating Lily and Zhuo Jingren would not let this happen. He would never want to see Lily broken hearted just because the person that she raised betrayed her.
While this was all Zhuo Jingren’s assumption, he does not want to risk it. He knew that Lily already thought about this. He knew that she had contemplated about having a child, adopting one and inwardly, she had thought about the possible effects of her choice. Still, her emotions had become too much for her to handle.
He understood that his wife was a very strong woman. But just like all strong women out there, she too has a vulnerable heart. She might not say it or utter a word of sadness, but as her husband, as the person who loved her more than he loved his own life- he understood. Zhuo Jingren moved a little closer to Lily and hugged her from behind, he slowly kissed the nape of her neck before he closed his eyes.
Lily needed time to think and he would gladly give it to her.
…..
Zhuo Jingren woke up alone in the bed. He raised an eyebrow before he stared at the clock on his bedside table. It was still six in the morning. He immediately got up and walked out of their room. The smell of beef was the first thing that he noticed. Was Lily cooking?
A small smile escaped his lips when he saw Lily in the kitchen, using his apron that was a little too big for her. He leaned against the wall as he watched Lily busily taste the porridge that she was cooking.
“You can come in,” Lily uttered without looking at her. In response, he smiled and walked towards her.
“Good morning?” he said before kissing the back of her head. Lily didn’t respond as she turned towards him, her hand folded around his neck as she looked up, meeting his dark brown eyes.
Without saying a word, Lily smiled before she tiptoed and kissed him. “Thank you.” She said as her lips left his.
“What are you thanking me for?”
“Only a few people close to me can disagree with what I say. I think you are very courageous for doing so.” She said, her eyes sparkled with happiness. “I think you saying what you had in mind last night was… refreshing.”
“Refreshing?”
“I am glad that our relationship had come to the point where we can say what we wanted to say knowing that it might create an argument. It only means that we are comfortable with each other,” she smiled.
Zhuo Jingren raised an eyebrow in response. “And? Did you agree with my opinions about the matter?”
“I do and I would apologize for making my emotions run rampant.” After a night of thinking, she had actually realized that her initial decision was not right. “I know that my decision is not right. But it was logical. If you are worried about the future then… wouldn’t it be easier for us to keep him closer to our side?”
Zhuo Jingren went silent as he pursed his lips. Then he slowly smiled at her. For some reason, he had always known that Lily will still find a logical reason to convince him. And he was right. Helplessness flashed in his eyes.
“Do you trust me?” Lily asked.
“With my life.” He answered, making Lily beamed at him.
“Then… it’s set. We will adopt him.”
