She had everything she wanted in the past. Now, she had nothing she wanted.
She had no desires as if there was nothing she liked in this colorful world.
Jiu Chi wanted to ask Xing Jiuan for a wish. Xing Jiuan thought about it for a long time and said, “Let’s go to the amusement park.”
The two of them bought a ticket and went in. Xing Jiuan only played with the carousel.
She was clearly only 20 years old, but she seemed to have aged terribly and was exhausted. She apologized to him that she could not play anymore and let him play by himself.
At that time, Jiu Chi really wanted to cry.
She was the only person in the world who had treated him so well, but he had harmed her.
Actually, it was not as easy to reverse all of this as he had said. However, he felt that everything was worth it.
He had done the wrong thing. Those were just corrections.
However, when he turned back time, everyone could forget everything and start a new life. Xing Jiuan could not.
She would remember those things forever, but she would forget about him.
Even if he tried hard to recover some of his mistakes and correct everything, he could not change Xing Jiuan.
She would never be able to go back to the past.
Those things would always be like a thorn that stabbed deeply into her heart. If it was removed, it would leave a scar, and if she did not remove it, it would hurt very much.
He covered his empty eye as if he could feel the pain when he dug it out again.
He had personally dug out this eye.
Fortunately, he could still leave one behind to see Xing Jiu’an happy.
He probably would not be able to obtain Xing Jiu’an’s forgiveness in this lifetime, and he had never expected to receive it either.
Even he could not forgive himself for those mistakes.
Xing Jiuan had suffered so much and should not have forgiven him.
He did not deserve it without a reason.
He tried to change everything, but it was still a mess.
He had been observing Xing Jiu’an in secret and knew how careful she was when she faced everything.
She tried to change, but the huge change that everything brought would make her panic again.
Later on, she thought things through or felt relieved.
Jiu Chi thought that Xing Jiuan was really brave.
After facing immense suffering and torture, she could still recover her mood and face this world with the cleanest heart.
Xing Jiuan was pure, simple, outstanding, and kind…
She had countless merits. Even if a lot of them were ruined by his interference, she could still maintain her original heart and be the best Xing Jiu’an.
It was enough that he was fortunate enough to know someone like her in his life!
However, he was really sad sometimes.
He really… really wanted to be Xing Jiu’an’s family.
It was a very blissful thing to be Xing Jiuan’s family.
He envied Mu Qing, Qi Lei, Ou Qi, and many others. He even envied Lu Zhichen.
He was even more envious of Li Ting.
Li Ting had died for Xing Jiuan in his previous life. In this life, Xing Jiuan took the initiative to look for him. For him, he was not afraid of death.
He did not want Xing Jiu’an to die for him either. Xing Jiu’an had already died because of him. That pain would only be sufficient once.
He only wanted to be like them and become the person Xing Jiuan cared about.
But what right did he have?
He was the one who had caused Xing Jiuan to suffer!
He had turned such a good Xing Jiu’an into this sorry state. Until now, she had not returned to her original state.
If his death could correct everything and bring everything back to the beginning, he would definitely be very happy.
But what did his life count for?
