Filled with a complicated mix of emotions, Xu Zhenyu watched as Wen Xinya broke down and cried while laying in Si Yiyan’s arms.
The thought of Wen Xinya being breathless in the car just now made him heave a sigh of relief.
Good that she’s cried it all out!
Good that she’s released all her negative emotions!
It would be rather worrying if she kept bottling up her emotions.
However, for some reason, he could not help but feel irritated at the sight of Wen Xinya crying in agony.
Until Si Yiyan appeared.
She seemed to have found a sturdy log on the ocean that she would rely on for dear life. It was as if she had vented all of her pain and agony after escaping death!
The reason for that was Si Yiyan.
It was Si Yiyan, the man whom she would bare her heart and soul to!
Not Xu Zhenyu!
Xu Zhenyu could not quite explain how he felt, but he knew that he was feeling extremely frustrated.
Whenever he was frustrated, he would feel an urge to smoke.
Hence, he did what his heart desired. He whipped out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket and pulled out a cigarette with trembling fingers and stuffed it into his mouth. Just as he was about to light it up, he was stopped.
“I’m sorry, Sir. Smoking is prohibited in the hospital. Please put your cigarette away,” a voice said coldly from above.
Xu Zhenyu suddenly looked up to see a nurse standing in front of him and staring at him sternly, seemingly trying to give him a warning.
“I’m sorry!” Xu Zhenyu finally remembered that he was still in the hospital and hurriedly put his cigarette and matchstick away.
Seeing that he was extremely sincere, the nurse relaxed her facial muscles and said in a mellower tone, “Sir, if you really have to, there’s a washroom in the West Wing of the doctors’ area where you can have a smoke.”
The nurse stared at the emergency room where she heard that a VIP guest was receiving emergency treatment. She also heard that the patient was a reputable big shot who was in a dangerous situation when sent to the hospital. All of the hospital’s most senior cardiologists were gathered in the emergency room. She reckoned that Xu Zhenyu was a family member of theirs.
It was normal for him to feel stressed and want to smoke since his family member’s life was in critical danger.
“Thank you!” Xu Zhenyu glanced at the couple who was sitting on the bench and snuggling up to each other and felt like they were a match made in heaven. Unable to tolerate the eyesore any longer, he felt a stronger urge to smoke.
Xu Zhenyu scurried towards the washroom in the West Wing and leaned against the hard white wall, whipped out a cigarette and placed it in his mouth. He then scratched the matchstick against the gunpowder and lit the cigarette up while the bluish flame flickered before his eyes.
The sense of satisfaction that arose after he took a puff made his frustration vanish a little. He said self-deprecatingly, “What a failure. I’ve really lost completely.”
When Old Mr. Mo was being rescued in the emergency room and Wen Xinya was being utterly agonized while Xu Zhenyu was feeling thankful that he could be there for her when she was at her most vulnerable time, what was Si Yiyan doing?
Si Yiyan was using his connections and wits to find the best doctors for Old Mr. Mo so as to rescue him.
That was Si Yiyan!
That was the Si Yiyan whom Wen Xinya loved greatly!
That was the Si Yiyan who could hold the sky up and give Wen Xinya comfort and hope when she was feeling desperate, hopeless and helpless.
“Be careful not to damage your lungs by smoking so heavily!” Gu Junling appeared out of nowhere and could not help but remind him when he saw Xu Zhenyu finishing a cigarette in three puffs.
After blowing the smoke out, Xu Zhenyu asked in a hoarse voice, “What brings you here?”
Old Mr. Mo had only been sent to the hospital for a while and there were only a few people who knew about it. Logically speaking, Gu Junling and the rest wouldn’t have found out so soon.
Gu Junling said, “Ninth Si called Tianyu!”
Both he and Zhou Tianyu were astonished when they received the call from Si Yiyan. They thought that Si Yiyan had called to tell them about the Korean-Chinese Alliance. To their surprise, it was about Old Mr. Mo suffering a ruptured heart, which resulted from myocardial infarction. He was in critical condition.
After some thought, he and Zhou Tianyu began to understand the reason for Si Yiyan’s actions. They were all well aware of how much Old Mr. Mo meant to Wen Xinya and hence, they knew how upset Wen Xinya was after finding out about Old Mr. Mo’s condition. If they were there to accompany her, she would probably feel less upset.
Even Gu Junling was amazed by how meticulous and thoughtful he was.
Xu Zhenyu bit on the cigarette and took a huge puff, after which he finished smoking the last tiny bit of the cigarette left. The smoke made his throat feel extremely uncomfortable and he exclaimed in a hoarse voice, “I… deserved to lose!”
Xu Zhenyu finally understood something.
He lost to Si Yiyan, not because he was not outstanding enough, but rather, it was because Si Yiyan was much more outstanding and capable than him.
Xu Zhenyu began choking and coughing violently afterwards.
The smoke made him feel like he was drowning, and it was as if his throat had been slit by knives.
Seeing how agonized her was, Gu Junling said miserably, “Xu-er, don’t do this…”
It was as if Xu Zhenyu did not hear anything at all. He coughed and burst into laughter. “Hahaha… I didn’t lose unfairly at all. I deserved it!”
However, he sounded more miserable than he would be if he were crying.
His voice was hoarse, nasal, and he was even coughing.
Gu Junling had no idea how he should comfort him. After finding out that the Wen Family had also been controlled by the Korean-Chinese Alliance which had begun controlling Wen Xinya’s destiny and put her in danger, Gu Junling knew that only a man like Si Yiyan could protect Wen Xinya.
There would never be a chance for Xu-er anymore.
However, he could not bring himself to say that to his close friend because he had to keep it a secret for Wen Xinya.
Guffawing wryly, Xu Zhenyu said, “Gu Junling, did you know? I’ve never felt so satisfied about losing before. I really… accept it fairly!”
He suddenly felt melancholic and pathetic after coming to terms with that fact. However, he also felt a strange and sudden sense of relief.
Gu Junling said, “That’s… great too, actually!”
The fact that Xu Zhenyu could accept failure and put away his pride to admit that he had already lost to Si Yiyan, meant that he had really matured. As a friend, Gu Junling ought to feel happy for Xu Zhenyu, but he could not bring himself to because the price that the latter had to pay to grow up was too heavy.
