At the very least, it proved that she was very rational after everything she did last night. That was why she accepted this fact after she woke up.
He got up and lifted the blanket silently as if he was searching for his clothes.
Gu Xin did not want to help him.
She did not know if she had torn his clothes last night.
Zhai an searched the room for a long time.
Gu Xin did not look or listen. She closed her eyes and shut herself in her own world.
She did not know how much time had passed.
Zhai an seemed to have put on her pajamas. After being knocked twice, she finally walked out of her room and brought her door over.
She opened her eyes and looked at the empty room. She also looked at the scattered clothes on the floor and her clothes.
She hugged the quilt and sat up from the bed, burying her head in her knees.
Twenty-three years ago, she had always felt that she was the happiest person in the world. Although she was not accompanied by her mother, her father had given her all the love that was no less than any normal family. She had always felt that she was very lucky, she had never even thought that one day, she would face so many things. She felt that she could not accept it at all!
The dull pain and fatigue in her body told her what happened last night.
What happened between her and Zhai an last night.
She could not find any reason to blame Zhai an.
That was because she was the one who took the initiative.
It was all her.
Zhai an was only passively accepting everything about her.
Moreover, any man would not really send his wife to another man’s bed.
She had asked him to send her away because she was making up an excuse to have sex with Zhai an last night.
She thought that she could lie to herself and blame Zhai an for all the mistakes and dirty deeds.
After she woke up, she realized that she was not so unreasonable.
She did not blame Zhai An.
It was just that she hated him a little because he had taken her virginity.
She hated him so much that she felt powerless.
She hated him so much that she had no way to vent her anger!
She really did not know how to face Zhai Yi in the future.
Even if she married Zhai an and they did not have sex, she could comfort herself by saying that she was still perfect. But now..
She was nothing to Zhai Yi!
She was silent and her body was trembling slightly.
From now on, what could she use to support this marriage that she thought was going to end sooner or later.
She yanked the blanket away.
Gu Xin left the big bed and walked into the bathroom.
The sound of water splashing could be heard in the bathroom. She could clearly see her body again and again.
Through the large floor-to-ceiling mirror, she could clearly see the bruises, bite marks, hickeys, and scratches on her body. She was telling herself that everything that happened last night was not a dream. Last Night.., she had really… slept with Zhai an.
The fact that the sky was falling and the earth was shaking made her collapse after enduring for an entire morning.
She squatted on the ground and cried her heart out.
She really didn’t like this feeling. She really didn’t want to live such a powerless life. She really didn’t want to live such a tiring and uncomfortable life!
Why did her world become like this? Why couldn’t she live well with the person she loved? Why did she give such a precious first time to a man she didn’t love.
