Her gaze was gentle and full of motherly love as she looked at her daughter. She had once returned to the country and hurt everyone around her like a porcupine. Now, she seemed even more dangerous.
“Baby, Mommy will definitely take good care of you. Mommy will also work hard to become a successful woman like my friend. When you grow up, you’ll know how outstanding that friend of mine is and how much I envy her.”
“I will definitely do it.”
“Mommy will definitely become a successful woman. I will, because I want to give my baby a bright future and a successful tomorrow.”
Tang Xiaoyu looked at her daughter, her vision finally blurring. Her daughter’s tender face gently stirred her emotions. As long as she looked at her child, she would feel that the pain she had experienced was not any simple suffering in this world.
If she could get through this, everything would be fine.
Tang Xiaoyu finally closed her eyes but the things that Gu Zhengrong did to her that night appeared in her mind once again. As long as she closed her eyes, she could almost see the disdain and hurt in his eyes.
He was the one who had done something wrong, but now it seemed like he had never done anything.
“But Gu Zhengrong, if you don’t love me, why won’t you let me off?”
Tang Xiaoyu opened her eyes. There were more blood vessels seen in her eyes and she was unable to sleep due to the sleepless nights she had been having for the past few days. She did not know how to face Gu Zhengrong in the future.
Tang Xiaoyu’s heart melted at the sight of the child beside her, but she could not fall asleep when she thought about how she should meet Gu Zhengrong in the future.
“Baby, what do you think mommy should do? What should I do to make your daddy believe that I really love him? Your daddy has never loved me, but what should I do? I still miss your daddy like this. Even if your daddy doesn’t love me, I still want to stay by his side forever, even if it’s just by being beside him.”
Tang Xiaoyu thought about how she had been with Gu Zhengrong for such a long time and how he had never responded to her existence. Even though he was repulsed by her presence, he did not reject her kindness toward him.
Perhaps lonely people always wished for someone to accompany them.
Perhaps, all of this meant that there was no fate between the two of them.
“We originally had no fate with each other and I was the one who persisted.” That was the most obvious statement between Tang Xiaoyu and Gu Zhengrong.
“Baby, Mommy loves you. Goodnight.”
Tang Xiaoyu looked into her child’s eyes and spoke gently.
Perhaps there were always too many desolations and disappointments in this world, but the person by her side always gave her courage and made her believe that there was still the most beautiful existence in this world.
Tang Xiaoyu tried to close her eyes again. Looking into the child’s eyes, she said in a gentle and low voice, “I love you, too.”
However, she did not know who she was talking to. Perhaps it was herself or Gu Zhengrong who was separated from her by a time difference.
“I love you” were the simplest words.
However, the strength and courage it gathered made people not dare to easily admit it. It was like a heavy promise. Once it was said, one had to accept all the responsibilities the words bore. Once one admitted it, one had to face the new relationship between the two of them in the future.
On the other hand, Gu Zhengrong, who was separated from Tang Xiaoyu by the time difference, had not had a good night’s sleep for a long time. In the half a year that Tang Xiaoyu had been gone, he had seen the plants around him wither. It had only been half a year, but Gu Zhengrong felt that it had been many years.
In such a long time, the woman he despised had never appeared in his world.
No message from her. No phone call from her. No smell of her.
It was as if she had never been to his world, yet he clearly knew how much Tang Xiaoyu occupied in his heart. It was also because he knew how difficult it was for her.
It was easy to fall in love with someone, but only Gu Zhengrong himself knew how difficult it was to fall in love with someone he had no feelings for. It was also because of this that Gu Zhengrong would not give up such a long time to find out about Tang Xiaoyu, but in the end, there was nothing.
Even the things that he had once thought, he did not expect them to be verified in the near future.
Tang Xiaoyu did not know what was going through Gu Zhengrong’s mind. She only made a huge decision a few minutes before she fell asleep. She would never run away from those people and things that she did not dare to face again. She would never find excuses for herself to not dare to face them again.
Because escaping would not solve anything.
“Xiaoyu, where are you? I miss you so much.”
Gu Zhengrong sat at the table by the window for another night. The traces of tears on his cheeks were obvious, but no matter how much he cried or how much he regretted, he could not see Tang Xiaoyu again.
He had accidentally found Tang Xiaoyu’s photo on the table in Tang Xiaoyu’s closet. Back then, Tang Xiaoyu wanted to place it on Gu Zhengrong’s table but was rejected by him.
The sensible Tang Xiaoyu did not put the photo on the table again and simply packed it into his closet.
“Xiaoyu, if you can come back, I promise that I’ll listen to everything you say. As long as you can return to my side, as long as you can come back, if you want me to marry you, I’ll agree to it. I really know that I was wrong. I thought that I still loved Pei Ge, but after you left, I realized who the person I loved was. Only then did I realize how ridiculous I was. It was so ridiculous that I couldn’t even believe that I was myself.”
Gu Zhengrong poured himself another glass of red wine. It was a red wine that had been kept in France for ten years. Gu Zhengrong had drunk no less than five bottles that night, but the more he drank, the clearer his thoughts became. No matter how he looked at Tang Xiaoyu, he could not see anything.
Perhaps it was best when one could not have it. If one could have it, one would not have such thoughts.
“As long as you’re willing to come back, I don’t want the company or the money. I only want you.”
