He slightly pressed against the tip of her nose. His voice was hoarse and miserable as if he was struggling at the edge of the cliff. “Do you… miss him?”
Shen Qianshu did not know how to reply to him. This answer would definitely be hurting, but she also did not want to be silent and deny her thoughts. Everything had an order of arrival. Only love did not have an order of arrival.
Noah’s eyes were very close. She could clearly see his bloodshot eyes as he was struggling stubbornly. However, he was so quiet as he waited for her answer. It was as if he had waited for a lifetime.
“I miss him,” Shen Qianshu said softly. “Noah, when you were not around, I also missed you. It’s just that Master is not as pure as you. He obviously knows the answer and is unwilling to hurt himself. Hence, he has never asked.”
However, Noah did not know that lies were even more hurtful than the truth. She held his hand and expressed her mind. “Noah, in my heart, he and you are one person. Although both of you deny it, the people around you have always treated you all as one person. Regardless of whether you are conscious or not conscious, whether it is Zhong Ran or Butler Luther, they have never given up on you. It is not because you are Noah. It is because you all are their master and the person they protect.”
“It is the same for Tong Hua and me. Look at Tong Hua calling you daddy. He calls you so willingly. We are all willing, and we convince ourselves reasonably to accept this matter. Master is your calm side. You are Master’s irritable side. They are not different.”
Noah suddenly pushed her away and walked forward. Shen Qianshu followed him and stepped in his footprints. Suddenly, she overtook him and walked backward. “Noah, don’t be angry.”
“I have always been living without consciousness for so many years. The number of times I have appeared is not many. The first time I appeared was when I was six years old. I appeared for a very short period. It was only for three days. Subsequently, I appear frequently because there are always people around him who want to hurt him. Back then, he did not have the ability to protect himself. Hence, I was the one who protected him. I obviously know everything, but I am unable to think independently. All my thinking comes from him. You can say that I am just one of his puppets. I’ll do whatever he wants to do. This has gone on for many years. We have always been in a subordinate relationship. I’m his accessory, and I’m a part of him. I don’t have consciousness and thoughts.”
Shen Qianshu was secretly startled. Accessory?
This confirms that it is not a case of dual personality but schizophrenia.
At first glance, schizophrenia and dual personality were the same. Actually, they had very obvious differences. For schizophrenia, it was very clear that it was one person, but dual personality was not. However, Ye Ling’s diagnosis report was dual personality all along and not schizophrenia.
There was one point which she had always felt to be very strange. It was also the point that Bo Yiren had always felt to be very strange. Noah and Ye Ling did not know anything about each other and did not acknowledge each other in the past diagnosis reports.
In other words, Ye Ling knew nothing about Noah, and Noah also knew nothing about Ye Ling. Every time Noah appeared, he was in a destructive rage. He also did not have any slightest intellect.
Hence, everybody subconsciously felt that this was one of Master’s personalities. But what was the truth?
If Noah’s mental world had always been dominated as Ye Ling had said all along, this was simply not a case of dual personality.
When did it start? She knew that Noah and Ye Ling were actually aware of each other. It was Noah who said it the last time. However, Ye Ling rarely talked about this matter. Could there exist a possibility?
Ye Ling actually…
