Chapter 47: It’s All My Fault
Translator: Exodus Tales Editor: Exodus Tales
“What a sin!” whispered Yanyan, her eyes brimming with tears.
Then, she slowly walked to Yang Dingtian’s side, gently grabbed his broken iron sword, and held his muddy right hand. She said softly, “Let’s go. Go home with me.”
Yang Dingtian stopped, his burning red eyes gradually clearing up as he looked at Yanyan. “Go home? Oh, okay!”
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During this entire period of time, Yanyan had heard countless cold words.
“City Lord Ximen, the first hero. I didn’t expect him to bark at the wrong tree and pick an idiotic madman to be his son-in-law!”
“It’s a pity that Ximen Yanyan has to be married to trash. Such a beautiful woman was pushed into the fire pit alive.”
“So what, Miss Ximen can’t even look at the trash. Did you know? Miss Ximen is still a virgin. They aren’t really married. She just can’t violate Ximen City Lord’s last will. Miss Ximen is waiting for a year and a half to pass. After the trash is killed by Ximen Yan, she could marry again.”
All these words made their way to Ximen Yanyan’s ears. Some she personally heard, while others were relayed to her by her maid, Lu Er.
Although many people dared not say those things to her face, their expressions when looking at her had become very weird. One day, Ximen Ju met her on the road, and asked faintly, “Is this the hope you were looking for?”
Ximen Lie also could not stay in Black Blood Castle. He went to Cloud Sky City to find Ximen Yanyan. “Are you going to let him go on like this?”
At that time, Ximen Yanyan was silent and did not answer.
Yang Yan the elder also spoke to her, “You still have time to go back on your word. The Northwest Qin family can ignore the scandal of you marrying a madman. If you wish to, Cloud Sky City can announce that you have never married anyone, have never married a madman.”
Ximen Yanyan still remained silent.
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“These people are so hateful. I can’t wait to tear their mouths off,” Lu Er said angrily. “Their words are getting more and more unpleasant. They really have no conscience. If it were not for the City Lord, they would not be so rich and prosperous as they are now. Now, they not only ridicule the madman but even dare laugh at Miss.”
“Their mouths grow bigger, but no one can stop them from speaking,” Yanyan said lightly.
Lu Er hesitated for a moment. Then, she whispered, “Miss, he looks like he’s in very bad shape. If you want, I’ll go and bring him over. Even four to five-year-old children are bullying him.”
Yanyan turned her head and said, “I have already said that I will never concern myself with his affairs. I spoke humbly and begged him, but he did not listen. This is what he asked for.”
Of course, Yanyan did not mean it. Somehow, even though Yang Dingtian’s stubbornness made her extremely angry, it was this same stubbornness that had been indelibly engraved into her heart.
So, she finally couldn’t help herself. She once again broke her vow and went to find Yang Dingtian again.
She was not Dongfang Bingling. Her heart was not so hard. Her mouth was sharp, but her heart was soft.
When she saw the wild and beggar-like Yang Dingtian, her heart ached.
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Therefore, the ragged and messy Yang Dingtian was brought back by Yanyan to her fragrant little building.
Back in Yanyan’s boudoir, she personally filled her fragrant bathtub with hot water and then let Yang Dingtian wash inside.
She personally bathed Yang Dingtian. At one point, he said that he wanted to wash himself. She immediately pushed him into the water, not allowing him to speak. Using her jade hands, she cleaned Yang Dingtian.
Then, she personally shaved his face.
After that, she used a white fox fur toothbrush, dipped it in the most expensive rose-scented fine salt, and scrubbed all of his teeth clean.
Next, she used her own lotus essence to wash Yang Dingtian’s hair.
Then, she used the ivory comb to comb his hair neatly.
Finally, she personally dressed him in a new robe.
A slender and handsome Yang Dingtian appeared in front of her again, but he was much thinner than before.
After that, she had a table set and filled with food. Yanyan accompanied Yang Dingtian while he ate, carefully and gently filling his bowl with food.
Yang Dingtian was like a whirlwind scattering wisps of clouds. He finished the table full of dishes.
After brushing their teeth, the two sat quietly in silence.
Yanyan suddenly reached out and touched Yang Dingtian’s cheek. She softly said, “It was my bad. I shouldn’t have been angry at that time. I shouldn’t have said those cruel words, nor should I have left you alone in the back of the mountain and let them laugh at you.”
When Yang Dingtian heard those words, he was surprised. But then, he smiled slightly. Yanyan thought he was crazy too.
Yanyan came to his side, her soft and tender body in close proximity. She softly said, “You are not crazy. You are just too stressed. It’s all my fault. Will you forgive me?”
Yang Dingtian’s eyes became gentle. “You haven’t done anything wrong. You’ve always been the best wife. Instead, my persistence and stubbornness have repeatedly hurt you. So, in front of me, you never have to ask me for forgiveness. In the future, don’t try to defend yourself even if you do make a mistake. I will never blame you.”
Then, he continued sternly, “Yanyan, I was not mad during this time. It was a state of emptiness, and there is good news, Yanyan. I have already mastered the seventh sword of the Pig Killing Swordsmanship. Soon, I can go on to the next step…”
Yang Dingtian had not finished speaking when Yanyan’s beautiful eyes shuddered. She showed a worried look, and her small hands directly covered Yang Dingtian’s mouth.
“Well, let’s talk about it tomorrow,” she said. She then led Yang Dingtian to the bed. “You sleep first. You haven’t slept in a long time, so sleep well first. Anything else we can discuss after you wake up.”
Yang Dingtian said with a rueful smile, “Yanyan, what I said was true…”
Before he finished speaking, Yanyan again covered his mouth. “Today, we will not discuss serious matters. We will only talk about matters of love between men and women today.”
Then, Yanyan’s beautiful eyes became soft, rippling like water. “Yang Dingtian, we’ve been married for a long time already, but I have never fulfilled the obligations of a wife. Shall I be your real wife today?”
Yang Dingtian’s body immediately trembled and was about to start speaking.
“Want to say a bunch of words to capture my heart first and only after, get my body?” Yanyan groaned. “Then, you don’t have to say anything.”
She took off his coat and let him lie on her fragrant bed.
Yanyan’s face was slightly red. She clenched her jade teeth and started to take off her clothes.
Yang Dingtian was horrified. She took her clothes off, leaving only a thin and translucent petticoat. Underneath the petticoat, there was only a pink apron and pink silk panties. Her snow-white plump body underneath the lively, fragrant, and translucent petticoat was exposed to Yang Dingtian, exuding incomparable temptation.
Then, Yanyan climbed into bed as well.
“You?” Yang Dingtian’s heart jumped wildly. His nose was filled with a fascinating scent. It was Yanyan’s intense, intoxicating, and altogether unique fragrance.
“We’re a couple. Of course, we sleep in the same bed.” Yanyan pretended to be speaking naturally, but her almost trembling tone betrayed her.
Then, her smooth and tender fragrant body lay beside Yang Dingtian, covered with a thin and fluffy quilt. At the moment, the two of them were in one bed.
“Yanyan, you don’t have to be like this,” Yang Dingtian said, breathing a little heavily.
Yanyan shifted her delicate body over. Her beautiful eyes stared at Yang Dingtian. “We have been husband and wife for several months now, but we keep our distance all the time. Don’t you want to be close to me?”
“Why wouldn’t I? You have the most beautiful face and the most beautiful body in the world. You are much more lovable than Dongfang Bingling.”
“But, the burden of responsibility is overwhelming, isn’t it?” Yanyan asked. “You like me very much, but you marrying me was entirely due to my father’s final will. Because you feel that I do not love you, because of self-esteem and because of pity, you won’t touch me until I have fallen in love with you.”
“And I married you only because of my father’s final will. I was unwilling in my heart, but I don’t disobey my father’s orders, so I pretended to give myself to you selflessly. In fact, my heart completely rejected you, keeping you thousands of miles away. Thus, we’ve been married for months and we’ve never been close to each other. We’re like familiar strangers. It’s like there’s a thick slab of ice between us.”
“But I’ve all forgotten all that. Time will create love. A man and a woman sleeping under the same quilt every day will develop affection towards each other. I used to pretend to be generous and willing to fulfill my duties as a wife, but I still found various reasons to keep this kind of closeness from happening.”
“From now on, I am longer looking for any excuses. We are husband and wife, so we should sleep together.” Yanyan’s warm and silky-smooth body gradually moved closer. Her fragrant breath gushed onto Yang Dingtian’s face. She said softly, “Husband, we are a couple, and I am a chaste woman. I will never remarry. Our being husband and wife was destined. Therefore, let’s throw away the overwhelmingly heavy responsibility that suffocates us, throw away our poor self-esteem, and learn to love each other in the purest way, okay?”
“There are all enemies around us, so we have to love and rely on each other. Only when we embrace each other will we feel warm and be able to lean on each other. Let’s get along well, shall we?”
Yang Dingtian was breathing hard. His shoulders were shaking as if trying to shake the weight from his body. He replied, “Alright!”
“That’s right.” Yanyan also trembled. “I have said it already. Now, I don’t want to say it again. To get a woman’s heart, you need to first enter her lower body……Now, hug me. Kiss me!”
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PS: I do not think that Yanyan went back on her word. She is just such a person. When she is angry, she can’t control her mouth. However, she cannot control her own heart either. She is such a kind and unruly woman, firm in speech but soft in heart.
