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CHAPTER 495
"You heard me quite well, Bai Qing Mei. I love you but I would not be subjected to second place in your heart and life because you want me for sex. Go, I bet he can give you great sex too."
"Stop it! Just stop it!"
"I won't. You had better choose now or else you lose us both because it seems to be that you fail to notice. That Li Jing girl loves him not for his wealth but for who he is as a person. Their love is strong and I hate to say this but I admire him in that. He saw what or whom he wanted and went for it. But for me, I have nothing."
"No, you have me. I am still here," Bai Qing Mei argued.
"As your what? Your best friend? Buddy? Sex partner? No, I do not want just that. I want all of you with nothing left. All and I mean all, including your heart. When would you stop denying it?"
"I am not denying anything."
"When would you stop denying your real feelings for me? I know you love me," Hao Huizhong attacked. "How can you not see it?"
"I love him."
"Bai Qing Mei, stop being in denial. You are happy being with me as I am with you. It isn't just the sex. If it was, there are so many people out there who can make you feel good."
"But they are not you," Bai Qing Mei argued.
"What if, let us say you and Ye Cheng end up together and your body can't seem to accept him, what would you do then? Run back to me and still be with him? Continue cheating? And you think if he finds out he would ever forgive you? You would be rejected, cast aside. I do not want that for you because I love you and mind you, if you do that, I would never be your cheating buddy."
"Hao Huizhong, you did not complain when we did before."
"Yes, I didn't and that was wrong of me. As a friend, it was the worst thing but I did hat out of selfish reasons of wanting you and wished you could love me after all our plan with Ye Cheng was done but no what did I get?"
"I am still here."
"You need to wake up Qing Mei. This is life and not a dream anymore. If you want me, say it."
She pursed her lips together. Unable to say the words she needed to say. Her heart did hurt her so much for it. She missed him. She wanted him.
But she could not come to terms that she would have to give up Ye Cheng.
By now her whole face was soiled with tears. Even she was finding it out to believe she was weeping so much for him but she could not care less about it.
"Huizhong please, so not go. Do not leave me. I cannot take it if you do. Please."
"Qing Mei." He shook his head, his own tears freely falling.
Right now he could not bother that he was a man, but allowed the tears to fall out freely. She was hurting for what she had already but she was just too spoilt to actually realize it.
"Everyone knows it. Even your grandfather knows it. It is just you who has failed to see it until now that you are in love with me but your obsession for Ye Cheng blinds you to that."
"Huizhong please."
"No, I would not pamper you on this anymore. You are old enough to make your decision. Just know this and never forget. I love you."
"No."
"Goodbye, Bai Qing Mei."
"NO! Huizhoing No, don't you dare end this call. No, do not leave me."
"I am sorry."
BEEP! BEEP!
"Huizhong! Hao Huizhong!"
When she did not get any more response from him, her heart broke into a million pieces. She pulled the phone away from her ear and looked at the screen, indeed the call had ended ut Bai Qing Mei did not believe it.
"Hao Huizhong. Huizhong! Huizhong, come back. Come back to me. Please. I am sorry, sorry for my behaviour. I would be good. I promise to be good, please…"
Seeing that she was not getting any response, she looked around, picked up her nightwear jacket and wore it then hurriedly got her car keys.
With her phone in one hand and car keys in the other, she ran out of the house as fast as her feet could take her and got into her car at the dead of the night.
"I am not leaving you, no matter what."
Her conviction was strong now.
She knew that being without him was not what she could handle. As she drove she weighed the options. It was high time she started thinking as it was.
Ye Cheng was already gone. Even if he wasn't, after what they did to him, he was never ever going to forgive her for it.
But here was Hao Huizhong who stood by her every step of the way. Yes, they started on the wrong foot but now, all she could think of was him.
Her brain wasn't functioning well again without him by her side. She thought she was whole but in reality, he completed her.
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Hao Huizhong who had not planned for things to go the way they went felt so hurt and bad inside of him. He really wanted this girl and wanted for her to be happy.
That was one of the reasons he gave himself to her but now if her happiness lies with another man, then by all means who was he to stop it?
At least with this act, she would be able to see if really her happiness lay with Ye Cheng or it was him who brought her that coverage.
"Bai Qing Mei, I have always loved you even though you have been a naughty bitchy girl to me, but you were my bitchy naughty lover.. The girl I dared to love."
