Time passed and Sei was still sitting beside her, looking at her peaceful sleeping face. He also stopped fanning her the moment he noticed that she’s not sweating anymore.
And after staring at her for a long time, Sei began to heaved a long and deep sigh. He clenched the cloth in front of his chest as he raised his face to look at the ceiling.
Afterwards, he bit his lip and closed his eyes for another long while.
That moment, Sei was sorting out the emotions inside his chest. Pain, the feeling he thought he will never feel again, the feeling he thought was buried along with his mother’s death long time ago resurfaced once again just by seeing Davi cry.
The sight of her crying as she asked him why, was like a broken video clip that kept appearing in his head over and over again. It was a sight he didn’t want to happen ever again. He doesn’t want to see her cry like that again. He doesn’t want to see her feel like that again.
For the first time in his life, Sei started to understand what is the so called romantic love. He finally understood that the cause of all the emotions that kept storming within him ever since he met her were all because he loves her.
He was overwhelmed and he didn’t know how to explain what he felt that moment he realized he’s in love with her. However, all he knew was that he will never bear to lose her. All he wanted was to keep her in his arms and to make her happy.
As he thinks about her, Sei then opened his eyes and clenched his shirt even harder. He opened his mouth and softly uttered few words.
“So this is love, huh.”
…
Zaki was already leaning on the wall in front of Sei and Davi’s room when the door finally opened. Sei stepped out but he just glanced at him without any word before he just walked hastily towards the courtyard.
Zaki on the other hand just followed him quietly. And as soon as they reached the courtyard, Sei finally talked.
“Zaki, let’s fight.” He said and Zaki could only sigh, as though he expected him to say that.
Thus, in the end, they just fought ferociously like usual under the dark sky. Until time passed and the fight ended. Sei was panting heavily as he leaned on the wall when Zaki reached out a bottle of water and a towel towards him.
Sei then just took the towel and wiped his wet face and neck before he took the water.
After some moments, both of them were now seating on the ground with their backs leaning on the wall.
“So? Have you thought about it?” Zaki broke the silence but for a long while, no word came out of Sei’s mouth. He just raised his head and stared at the dark sky quietly before he finally opened his mouth.
“Zaki… I’m feeling pain again.” He just said causing Zaki to fell speechless.
That moment, Zaki remember that time when Sei suddenly told him that he couldn’t feel a thing, not even pain. He complained that he felt like his heart was numb and completely empty. Sei was just twelve back then and so he is. Thus in the end, they both ignored it saying that the numbness will soon disappear. Not knowing that it will last for years to the point that he would even forget how to smile.
Reminiscing the past, Zaki couldn’t help but smile as he spoke.
“Well, it’s good to hear that.”
