Long Jinjing observed Lu Zihao’s reaction but there was none at all. He didn’t even pause as the two of them continued walking behind Grandpa Lu who had already managed to make the houseboy share his life story.
She wasn’t surprised because it had always been rare for Lu Zihao to express any of his real feelings since they got to know each other. It was only after he revealed Shadow Winds to her that he began to display some parts of his real emotions to her on a regular basis.
Despite already knowing all this, she still felt disappointed that her question didn’t elicit even just a tiny bit of reaction from him. To her, this proved that his feelings for her weren’t deep enough. He didn’t love her yet. Hopefully, he would begin loving her one day as much as she loved him.
Her heart clenched but she had already gotten used to this kind of pain. The hope that everything would work out in the end and that he would learn to love her acted as a temporary salve for her heartache.
“Never mind,” she whispered with a bitter smile.
He stopped walking all of a sudden. Since they were holding hands, she also stopped with him.
“You’re upset,” he said. It wasn’t a question but a statement.
“It’s fine.”
“You really want to know what I think about what the old man said at the dinner table about you being his future granddaughter-in-law?”
She hesitated before nodding. His sigh was almost imperceptible but she still detected it after being with him for some time now. It disheartened her.
Why did he sigh? Was he annoyed at her? Did he think that she was being too pushy? Possibly. But she still wanted to know what he thought.
In the end, he told her, “I don’t know.”
“What?”
“There are so many things going through my mind. They’re all so confusing that I can’t make sense of all of them. That’s why I don’t know. This is the truth.”
She stared at him, focused again on reading his expression. This time, it wasn’t as unreadable anymore. Indeed, she saw the trace of confusion in his dark eyes. It might not be the ideal answer that she was looking for but at least he felt something and wasn’t indifferent. Her earlier disappointment lessened but didn’t disappear.
“Okay, Nikolai. I understand.”
“Hm.”
They looked at each other while standing in front of a glass wall. The moon was blocked by dark clouds. Water droplets outside the glass indicated that it was raining.
As Long Jinjing continued to stare at the man that she loved and was hoping to love her back someday, she thought that the stormy weather outside was perfect to describe their relationship.
It was tumultuous, dangerous, and even downright terrifying, but there was still that instinctive hope for a better and brighter tomorrow after the storm passed—if she survived. And she hoped that she would survive in the end.
The moment made her love for him feel like it was overflowing from her heart. It was painful and sweet at the same time. Her body moved on instinct. She jumped on him, wrapping both her arms around his neck and her legs around his waist, not caring anymore if other people saw her daring actions. He caught her, looking surprised and confused at the same time. His reaction satisfied her.
Then she kissed him.
Deeply. Thoroughly. Passionately.
She kissed him, trying to convey to him all of her feelings as much as she could. He tried to take over the kiss but she refused to surrender the control this time. She vented all her negative emotions from what happened with Elder Long Jufang earlier in that deep, hard kiss.
Hearts racing, heavy breathing, tight embracing, lips sucking, tongues dancing, and temperature rising.
Both of them became lost in their own little world of fierce boiling desire. Their surroundings faded away. There was only the two of them and their mutual desire for each other.
Long Jinjing was the first one to break away from the kiss. It was because she couldn’t breathe anymore. She forcefully twisted her head to the side and started gasping. His wet mouth continued to suck on her neck while she wheezed some air into her lungs. She was still wrapped around her like a koala.
It was a challenge but she still managed to clear her head. Barely.
She saw their reflection on the glass wall and immediately flushed in embarrassment. The next thing that she noticed was the reflection of the people watching them. She could see a grinning Grandpa Lu and the houseboy who was pretending not to look but was actually peeking at them. The members of the security staff might be expressionless but she knew that their eyes were watching everything.
Oh no.
She patted Lu Zihao’s back, urging him to stop sucking on her neck and jaw. He didn’t stop.
“Nikolai,” she whispered. “Everyone is watching. Stop.”
He continued for a few seconds before finally stopping. He rested his forehead on the crook of her neck and shoulder while panting.
She tapped his back and said, “Let me down.”
However, he only tightened his hold on her. Their position certainly looked scandalous. Fortunately, Long Jinjing felt safe at Dragon Palace. She still felt extremely embarrassed though.
Finally, Lu Zihao put her back down to stand on her own feet before hissing to her ear, “After dinner, you better prepare yourself. I’m gonna fuck you until you pass out!”
She shivered from delight before nodding. If it wasn’t for Grandpa Lu who expected them to eat dinner together with Jiang Ying Yue and Little Jun, then it would be fine with her if Lu Zihao said that he wanted to skip dinner to have sex in his bedroom.
She wanted to feel his hardness deep inside her wet core tonight. Multiple times. Oh, how she wanted him so much tonight. Every night.
However, their desire had to wait. They still had to accompany Grandpa Lu for dinner.
“Bahahaha! This old man is happy to see you two so passionate with each other! But you still need to eat or you won’t have any fuel to last the whole night! Hurry up and let’s go! The sooner we finish eating, the sooner you two can start making my next great-grandbabies! Bahahaha!”
