1849 Goodbye, My Sun
It was also that night that he was driven crazy by that hug and asked her bluntly if she would like that child.
Now that Feng Ze thought about it, he knew how frightened Su Bei was that night.
It was because he allowed himself to release the demon that was locked in his heart. He also released his jealousy and possessiveness. He bared his ferocious fangs, wanting to tear her apart and eat her up. He wanted her to belong only to him and not let anyone covet her anymore.
Su Bei was so frightened that the corners of her eyes turned red. She had always loved to smile, so her voice was filled with tears as she tried her best to avoid him.
He had forced a kiss on her regardless of everything else. He had allowed his demon to scare her and almost hurt her.
From that day on, she distanced herself from him and ran away whenever she saw him.
Her hair was replaced by ear-length hair. Her big eyes were still bright and spirited. However, whenever she saw him, she was at a loss and seemed to be preparing to escape at any moment.
She wouldn’t eat the apples and steamed buns he gave her in front of him. She always ran to the side and sat with the other children.
At that time, he relied on his own ability to earn money. He would always buy her all kinds of candy. In the past, she would always eat them until her eyes narrowed in satisfaction. When she was happy, she would call him Brother Feng Ze.
However, after that, he realized that she put all the candy he gave her in a big jar and never opened it again until it expired.
Feng Ze knew too well how he had pushed her away.
He knew too well what kind of demon was in his heart.
After that, Su Bei was picked up by the Su family again and never returned to the orphanage.
Feng Ze had gone to look for her. She was finally with that imposing young master, and her smile was even more dazzling.
From then on, his sunlight disappeared. There was no longer a small sun shining in the orphanage.
After that, she went to the United States and gave birth to Da Bao and Gun Gun.
She was no longer disgusted by his care, but she was not close to him either. Feng Ze knew that if it were not for Da Bao’s dependence on him, she would not even want to be around him.
He thought that it could be resolved eventually and they could go back to the times when they were young. He could once again see her smile sweetly while handing candy to him. She would raise her little head to look at him with a smile on her face.
But… he didn’t get to see her like that again.
It was only later that he found out that those demons were his other personalities. They followed him like a shadow. When they were released, even he could not control them.
One day, he might still hurt her.
He had no choice but to let her go back to Lu Heting.
Because he couldn’t give her what Lu Heting could.
Feng Ze closed his eyes. The candy in his mouth had already melted and spread to every corner of his mouth, stimulating his taste buds. It was so bitter that he could not swallow it.
“Boss, can we proceed?” Gu Xifeng’s voice sounded.
“Yes,” Feng Ze replied in a low voice.
“Alright. We’ll choose a personality that’s closest to your main personality but doesn’t have an obsession with Su Bei. The other personalities will gradually disappear or fuse into your main personality during the treatment. If you have no objections, we’ll start now. Please follow my instructions…”
The doctor’s voice came.
Feng Ze smiled. ‘Goodbye, my little sun.’
…
Outside the treatment room.
Da Bao lay in Su Bei’s arms uncomfortably.
Lin Yu said in a low voice, “Su Bei, I’ll send you back.”
Su Bei nodded. After Feng Ze’s treatment, it was best if they didn’t see each other again. It would be good for him.
After getting into the car with Da Bao and Gun Gun, Lin Yu drove the car. When they stopped at a red light, he looked at Su Bei in the rearview mirror and tried to make her happy. “Xiao Bei, when you first came to the orphanage, you always tied your hair in two cute little pigtails. They were especially cute. Do you remember that? At that time, everyone liked to come over and tease you. Some brats were too naughty and even undid your pigtails. You said that you were fine and even laughed. In the end, Boss brought those brats over and beat them up.”
After saying that, he realized that he had mentioned Boss again.
Fortunately, Su Bei’s expression did not change much.
Gun Gun smiled happily. “So, Bei Bei used to have little pigtails?”
“Mhm.” Su Bei nodded.
At that time, although she was not rich and was not by her family’s side, she did not feel like she lacked anything because of Feng Ze and the rest. She was the happiest when she was young.
She had also thought about it. If it weren’t for Feng Ze forcing a kiss on her that night and almost doing something overboard, perhaps she wouldn’t have been so afraid of him and wouldn’t have distanced herself from him. Perhaps she would even have gotten together with him.
But there were no ifs.
From that night on, there were no ifs.
Although she knew now that everything was because of his multiple personalities, it was still a missed opportunity.
Ever since Lu Heting appeared in her life, it was impossible between her and Feng Ze.
She thought of the trees back then. They were always tall and big, and the wind was gentle. The apples were crisper than they were now, and the steamed buns were softer than they were now. The sunlight was good, and she couldn’t help but smile.
She recalled that back then, her happiness and freedom were all due to Feng Ze.
She unwrapped the candy and stuffed it into her mouth.
‘Goodbye, Brother Feng Ze.’
…
Su Bei stayed in the United States for two more days before going back.
When she boarded the plane, she received a message from Gu Xifeng. [The psychiatric treatment was very successful. Don’t worry.]
She put away her phone, held Da Bao’s and Gun Gun’s hands, and boarded the plane. She found their seats and sat down.
Gun Gun had already recovered his mood and was happily looking at the blue sky and white clouds outside the window.
Da Bao was deep in thought. At this moment, Gun Gun asked him, “Brother Da Bao, are we in the stratosphere or the troposphere?”
Da Bao turned around, smiled, and began to explain to Gun Gun.
…
As soon as they entered the Lu family’s mansion, Lu Weijian’s voice became louder.
“Grandpa, Grandma, Aunt, my brother and sister-in-law are back!”
The entire family looked around at Su Bei with eager anticipation. Seeing that she was safe, they all smiled.
It could be said that they were the most worried about this incident. The incident clearly happened in the Lu family’s mansion, but they received the least information.
“Su Bei!” Han Qingwan and Camilan walked over at the same time.
Seeing the tears in their eyes, Su Bei knew that they were sincerely worried. She smiled and shook her head. “I’m fine. I’m fine.”
“The Lu family has let you down and let you suffer.” Old Madam Lu also looked guilty.
They actually had some understanding of Ghost’s involvement, but in the end, if Lu Yaode hadn’t caused trouble, things wouldn’t have ended up like that.
