“… Unworthy?” Gu Nianzhi repeated Lu Jin’s words in a daze. Although she had heard the word clearly, her brain was still muddled and she had no idea what it meant.
She instinctively retorted, “Yes, yes, no, no. What does it have to do with whether I’m worthy or not?”
Lu Jin lowered his head and didn’t speak for a long time.
Gu Nianzhi was anxious, disappointed, and slightly wronged. Finally, she couldn’t hold it in anymore and wanted to get out of bed.
However, she had overestimated her recovery rate. She only felt her vision go black, and her limbs were completely out of control. With a thud, she rolled off the bed.
Her face pale from the pain, she clutched her chest, and her forehead was sweating profusely.
Lu Jin was truly scared out of his wits. He rushed over to pick her up and placed her on the specially made hospital bed.
The monitors attached to her chest, head, and wrist began to beep.
The seven-colored lights, emitting rays of rainbow light, reflected each other in the room. It was as if a rainbow had been set up in the room. It was a beautiful sight to behold.
Gu Nianzhi wasn’t in the mood to enjoy such a beautiful scene.
Her bright eyes, as if there were two balls of black mercury in the white mercury, were wide open. They were clear and ethereal as she quietly looked at Lu Jin’s tense face.
Her eyes were filled with uncontrollable sadness and disappointment.
“Are you okay? Don’t move… I said, you have to control yourself. You can’t make such a big move that will affect the recovery of your wound.” Lu Jin’s forehead was also sweating, and his face was frighteningly pale.
His hands trembled slightly, but he didn’t dare to look Gu Nianzhi in the eye.
Gu Nianzhi looked at the hair above his head and said softly,”… I was sent there by you, and then they kidnapped me from the other world, right?”
Lu Jin nodded and half-knelt in front of Gu Nianzhi’s bed while slowly tucking her in.
“… In the other world, there’s Gu Xiangwen. He has a daughter named Gu Nianzhi.”
Lu Jin’s body stiffened. He continued to tuck Gu Nianzhi under the blanket. He lowered his head and knelt there motionlessly.
“That Gu Xiangwen is very good to his daughter, Gu Nianzhi. I heard that Little Nianzhi has a bad temper and often gets into trouble with others, but in that Gu Xiangwen’s eyes, his daughter is all good.”
“He doesn’t care if she has a bad temper or doesn’t need her to be obedient. He loves his daughter wholeheartedly and unreservedly.”
“He made a lot of arrangements and preparations to treat her illness so that she could grow up safely.”
“At that time, I really thought that he was my father, a father who loved me even more than I had imagined. Do you know how happy I was?”
Gu Nianzhi’s tears fell without warning, but she didn’t cry. Only tears fell down.
“I was actually doing very well in that world, but no matter how well I was doing, I knew that the people who were good to me weren’t my parents.”
“I didn’t have any expectations or fantasies about my parents. I didn’t understand why, but when I saw my classmates’ parents’ unreserved love for them, I knew what I was missing.”
“But I didn’t think of asking for more because Major General Huo was good enough for me.”
Thinking of Huo Shaoheng, Gu Nianzhi closed her eyes. Big tears, falling on the thin silk quilt and rolling down the specially made silk that didn’t get wet, fell again.
Lu Jin lowered his head, and his tears fell uncontrollably. They mixed with Gu Nianzhi’s tears and formed a faint puddle on the bed sheet.
“… It wasn’t until I arrived here that I realized that the Gu Xiangwen over there, the magnanimous, gentle, and kind Gu Xiangwen, might not be my father.”
“There must be another Gu Nianzhi over there, but she passed away before I got there, right?”
Because counterparts couldn’t live in the same space and time at the same time.
The fact that she could get there safely meant that Gu Nianzhi was already dead.
Lu Jin nodded again and wiped his tears with the back of his hand.
Gu Nianzhi took a deep breath and said slowly,”… I knew I wouldn’t be so lucky. Such a good father doesn’t belong to me…”
Lu Jin couldn’t take it anymore. His shoulders shaking uncontrollably, he immediately knelt in front of Gu Nianzhi’s bed while clutching the thin silk blanket tightly.
He suppressed his cries, but couldn’t control the pain in his heart.
It was all his fault… it was all his fault..
He was arrogant, cocky and even regarded himself as God. For the sake of scientific breakthroughs, he would do anything.
But look at what he had done!
How could he have the face to let such a good girl call him father? He really didn’t deserve it!
When he had let her be born, how had he ever treated her like a daughter? !
Gu Nianzhi didn’t know what Lu Jin was thinking, but she could tell from his expression that he was extremely upset and guilty, and he was still unwilling to admit that he was her father, Gu Xiangwen.
Her disappointment had reached its peak, and her eyes were gradually filled with anger. “If that’s the case, then why did you still come to my side?!”
“You’ve already sent me away and I didn’t remember anything, so why did you have to make such an unnecessary move? !”
Lu Jin stopped crying and shook his head with his hoarse voice. “It’s not… it’s not like that… I just… I just wanted to see you…”
“See me? You only dared to look at me under the mask of the Lion King! You lied to me and made me call you father!” Gu Nianzhi used all her strength to push Lu Jin’s head away.
“… You just don’t want me! None of you want me! Why did you give birth to me? !”
Lu Jin looked up abruptly and saw Gu Nianzhi’s tearful little face. Her large black and white eyes were filled with despair and grief.
He rushed to her and held her hand. His lips trembled and he sobbed for a long time before saying, “Nianzhi, I’m sorry…”
Gu Nianzhi closed her eyes and allowed the tears to flow down the corners of her eyes and into her hair. She mumbled, “You finally admit that you’re my father? Why? Why didn’t you want me? Why is it so hard for you to even admit that you’re my father?”
Her voice was filled with disappointment and exhaustion. It was as if she had run the end of a marathon and was completely exhausted.
Lu Jin hadn’t expected Gu Nianzhi to be so smart. She was even smarter than he had imagined.
After only a few interactions, she had guessed that he was her father.
To be honest, he wasn’t ready to acknowledge her, but she was too strong. Every word was like a 50,000-volt voltage that struck his heart, and he couldn’t control himself at all.
To hell with all those worries!
Since his daughter was so brave, he couldn’t let her down again.
Lu Jin sorted out his thoughts and pulled out a tissue from the bedside table in front of the bed. He wiped Gu Nianzhi’s tears and said, “Yes, I’m your father, Gu Xiangwen.”
“I’m not as gentle and kind as the Gu Xiangwen over there. I’ve disappointed you.”
Gu Nianzhi: “…”
She opened her eyes and glared at him. “Do you think I’m disappointed by this? !”
“Isn’t it?” Lu Jin rubbed his hands awkwardly and kneeled properly. He forced himself to look at Gu Nianzhi. “I have interpersonal disorder. I don’t know how to be a person. I only know how to do experiments.”
“I have a bad temper and often offend people.”
“They all say that I’m crazy. I’m really crazy academically. I’m crazier than you can imagine.”
“And I’m a wanted criminal. I have a murder charge on my head.”
“The most important thing is that when I gave birth to you, I didn’t treat you like a daughter.”
“To me, at first, you were just an experiment.”
“But later, you grew up in front of me day by day. You would look at me and smile. When I fed you the formula, you would hold the bottle and drink it with relish.
“You were easy to raise. You ate, drank, and defecated as regularly as they said in baby-raising textbooks.
“When I did experiments, you would look at me with wide eyes. Sometimes, when you were bored, you would eat your own hands. When I told you not to eat anymore, you would giggle at me and take out your small hands from your mouth. Then, when you thought I couldn’t see, you would secretly put your small hands in your mouth.
“When I drew your blood and extracted your bone marrow, you were in a lot of pain, but you didn’t cry. You, thinking that I was playing a game with you, just looked at me in confusion.
“You were so cute that I gradually forgot that you were just an experiment for me
“I began to realize that you weren’t an experiment. You were a living person. You were my biological daughter, Gu Xiangwen
“I wouldn’t have been able to hold back my tears when I extracted your bone marrow, but you used your little hands to wipe my tears and blow on me. You promised me that Nianzhi would be very obedient. Daddy, don’t cry… you were only two years old at the time…
“Not long after, my magnetic field research had a major breakthrough. I left the biological genetics laboratory and handed you over to someone I shouldn’t have.
“Four years later, I came back and saw you at the age of six…”
“… It’s all my fault, I made you suffer for four years!”
In the end, he looked at Gu Nianzhi eagerly and asked uneasily, “Do you still want such an irresponsible Gu Xiangwen and a scumbag father like me?”
