Translator: EndlessFantasy Translation Editor: EndlessFantasy Translation
At that very moment, Yan Qingsi could only hear Yue Tigfeng’s voice as her surroundings were dampened to complete silence.
She could only pay attention to Yue Tingfeng as he was very clearly reflected on Yan Qingsi’s eyes.
It was as if time had stopped for Yan Qingsi as she stood frozen in her tracks, unable to move. After what seemed like an eternity, Yan Qingsi asked, “Including the Yue Family’s foundation?”
“Yes, it’s included,” Yue Tingfeng replied.
“Why?” Yan Qingsi asked.
Yue Tingfeng replied with a smile on his face. “You’re my lady and all that I want to do—more than anything in the world—is to spoil you and love you to bits. So, the main point is… I am super in love with you!”
Yue Tingfeng let out a self-deprecating laugh and said, “I remember you once said that I should pray that I would never fall in love with you… Ironically, it seems that I was never blessed by the gods. So tell me, what should I do?”
Yan Qingsi felt her heart beating in speeds that she had never felt before. He confessed. Was she waiting for Yue Tingfeng’s confession?
Or was she allowing this arrogant, self-inflated man to fall in love with her.
She used to resent him. She had an insatiable anger toward him, and she had sworn on multiple occasions to herself. ‘Yue Tingfeng, I swear I will get you to fall so deeply in love with me and I will make sure I ruin your entire life.’
However, after spending so much time with him and going through so much together, she saw how Yue Tingfeng had changed and matured as a person. She was there to observe the little changes he progressed with time.
Her entire journey till then was smooth thanks to Yue Tingfeng.
She owed her survival to him.
She had grown more and more uncertain about fulfilling the sworn oath she made to herself more than ever.
Yan Qingsi had come so far and had gone through hell to find her voice and purpose. She simply said, “Has it ever crossed your mind that I’d never thought of you as my man?”
Yan Qingsi had never thought of Yue Tingfeng as her man, or more accurately, she had never allowed anyone to assimilate themselves into her own life.
She was unsure of her own future and destiny. She was even more uncertain as to how long she would walk the path of darkness, and thus, she would not allow herself to bring any shred of her own emotions into her deep dark abyss and even more so, to drag anyone in her own business.
She had told herself that her path to darkness was her own journey to walk alone.
Yue Tingfeng was not surprised at Yan Qingsi’s reply. He knew well enough that this would be her reply after he had made his confession.
“Do you like Jin Xuechu?” Yue Tingfeng asked.
“No.” Yan Qingsi replied while shaking her head.
“What about Qin Jingzhi?” Yue Tingfeng added.
“Nope,” Yan Qingsi replied.
“Then, what about Helan Fangnian…” Yue Tingfeng probed further.
This question made Yan Qingsi hesitate a little. It was not like the previous blunt and quick rejection. This one, however, made her think a little. She replied after a moment of thought. “Nope.”
Yue Tingfeng was slightly frustrated. He asked “Why did you hesitate on that one?”
“Truly, I was a little shaken then. My feelings toward him were conflicted at the very least. And I didn’t know that I never really loved him then. However, with time, we both drifted apart till now. So the takeaway would mean that I can love whoever I choose and I know as clear as ever, it’s impossible for me to have any feelings toward him,” Yan Qingsi explained.
Yan Qingsi thought about how she had felt toward Helan Fangnian. If they had never drifted apart, it would be extremely likely for her to fall for him. However, all that could only be assumptions and as reality had dictated, they both had drifted apart and so she should not linger on assumptions.
Her explanation seemingly made Yue Tingfeng happy. He said, “It’s alright… Since without me, it’s unlikely for you to choose anyone else. Even if you don’t see me as your man, I have a lifetime to spend with you.”
No matter how much he could tolerate Yan Qingsi, he still had his bottom line and that would be his submission of his heart to Yan Qingsi alone.
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Author’s Note:
Lalala, I somehow felt like I just love the scandal.
