There was a silence on the other side for a while, and she seemed to be thinking about her wording. After a while, she said, “Lou Yao Yao, what do you think you should prepare?”
What to prepare? Lou Yao Yao had never been a mother, how would she know exactly what she needed to do? She only knew that she had to give the child the best environment for growth, the best education, and to let the child grow up healthily. And after that, she was not clear.
“Lou Yao Yao, there is no mother who is completely prepared because she has a child”.
“I seem to not have told you about my mother. My mother is a very weak woman. If you just talk to her a little louder, her eyes can’t help but redden. She is also so stupid, whenever she buys somethings, she always gets cheated. She does not dare to talk loudly to people, always agreeing with what others say and does not even dare to refute them. When I was young, I hated her. Why were other mothers able to bravely find the other party to deal with them when their child was being bullied, but she could only hide and cry?”
“Even afterwards when my father had an affair and wanted to divorce her, she also did not dare to tells others. Even the assets she has now from the divorce were all what I fought for. But, does she not love me? No, she loves me a lot, loves me more than anyone. She has always been working hard to make herself stronger, although the result is not big”.
“Not every woman is born to be a good mother. Before they have children, they were also spoiled, they were also scared of the dark or scared of bugs. They will also be angered to tears by others’ words and feel wronged because of various little things. They could still be the same even after having children, just that they will not dare to cry in front of their children, that’s all. Could it be that because of these, they are not good mothers?”
“It is natural that mothers love their children, and also natural that children love their mothers. Lou Yao Yao, working hard is enough, don’t shrink away because of your own weakness”.
This seemed to be the first time that Tan Qin said so many words. When she talked about her mother, her tone was very gentle and even had a tinge of pampering. If her mother was really like what she said, then who was the mother and who was the child, was really a bit difficult to say.
It’s no wonder that Tan Qin’s temper had always been so good. With such a mother, it would definitely train her patience and temper.
Lou Yao Yao thought, if she met with the same situation, she would probably also be unable to truly hate such a mother. At most, she would resent her for being lesser than an average mother! Not every mother could be as strong as Fang Xi Lei, and even if they were as strong as Fang Xi Lei, it does not mean they would be a good mother. When Lou Yao Yao was a child, she had once hated her because of her busyness. But ultimately, she still loved her mama.
“Tan Qin, thank you.” If it was not to comfort her, with Tan Qin’s personality, she would probably not take the initiative to talk about these.
Tan Qin’s tone remained calm: “Mm, is there anything else?”
Lou Yao Yao’s mood improved a lot, so she did not continue to bother Tan Qin and let her go.
Who said that when you’re a mother, you can’t continue to be childish? She thought, if her child were to despise her in the future, she’ll beat him up!
Speaking of it, in some aspects, she is very similar to Tan Qin’s mother. She still had this much of self-awareness. However, she was not timid, but she was wilful and childish.
After thinking it through, Lou Yao Yao touched her still flat stomach and went home by cab. Although she really wanted to tell Qin Zhi, but he should not be free at this time. It would not be good if she were to held up his work, so she decided to tell him at night.
When she got home, she happened to meet Lou Qing Qing who she hadn’t seen for a long time. She was pulling a few suitcases of luggage, looking like she was moving out. There was a car waiting at the door, and when the man waiting in the car saw her come out, he came down and helped her with her luggage.
Lou Yao Yao stood and looked from the side. She felt that this man looked very familiar. He was probably in his early thirties, he was not very handsome nor was he ugly, but his temperament added a lot of colour to him, giving others the feeling of gentleness and humility. That man noticed that Lou Yao Yao was sizing him up and he smiled and nodded at her.
Lou Yao Yao just scratched her face, waiting for the two to finish moving their things, and gave way. Watching Lou Qing Qing almost getting on the car, Lou Yao Yao suddenly said loudly: “Lou Qing Qing, you watch out for yourself.”
