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Trinity
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I couldn't believe that it had been a month already. I couldn't believe that everyone was getting ready to leave today. It was a sad day and I didn't want them to go, but at the same time, I think it was time.
For one thing, them leaving would let me get back to work. I could start looking for the people that I might hire to help me with my work. I could get everything done early and spend time with my family and make sure that the voice never came back to bother me.
'…they die…you…run…mass destruction…your fault…murderer…run away…murderer…killer…your fault…destroyer…all dead…'
That voice still hadn't left me alone. I had heard it all month. I had heard it since I took off work for this visit and I was sure that when the visit was over and I went back to work tomorrow, then I would feel so much better. The stress would immediately dissipate and I would feel instantly better. I was sure of it.
"I love you. Make sure that you keep up with those weekly calls." Daci was hugging me tightly. I think she could sense something was wrong with me, she had been a lot more clingy with me than she used to be in the past. I know she was just worried as a family member should be, but I didn't want her to see that part of me, that weak side.
"I will, don't worry. We all love the weekly calls." I assured her with a hug.
I watched on as the kids ran up to say their goodbyes. Reagan and Rika were older and more outgoing, so they were going to everyone on their own. Even though Talia knew everyone here, and even though she just spent an entire month with them, she was too shy to be going up to them on her own.
Talia only went up to say her goodbyes to Aunt Glory with Reece holding her hand and giving her the courage. I saw a bright, happy smile on Reece's face and knew that it wasn't because of Talia being nervous or scared. No, he was just happy that she still needed him. When Levi and Luka were here, he seemed to have lost some of his daddy's confidence.
I don't think that Reece knew that a little girl will always need her daddy, no matter how old she gets or how capable she is. Sometimes we just need our daddy, or the man that we saw as our daddy. I still needed my dad, who was also my uncle. Reece was never going to be left completely out of the loop when it came to the girls. Talia and Rika were going to need him for a long time still.
For a little while, I was just hanging back and watching everyone. I watched Reece take Talia to say goodbye to the babies. She seemed to like having Torben, Lily and Rose around. Maybe Reece and I should have another baby sometime soon. I didn't want to be done but I also didn't know where to stop with the number of kids we had. I mean, we're wolves, we're immortal, and we're royalty. All of those factors basically say that we're supposed to have a lot of kids. Well, the royalty part is depending on which culture and point in time you're looking at. Still, most royals that I remember reading about had a whole mess of kids.
"What are you doing, hiding over here?" A gruff voice rose behind me while a set of thick, strong arms closed around me from behind. I had been so lost in thought that I hadn't even noticed that Trevor had come up behind me.
"EEEEP!" I squealed loudly when he picked me up and held me like an older brother scaring his little sister. Actually, this exact same thing happened to me when I was a kid. Carter had lifted me up from behind and scared the shit out of me.
"HAHAHAH!" Trevor was laughing hard while everyone was watching us.
"I was lost in thought, you grizzly. I wasn't paying attention." I snapped at him.
"Oh, yeah, sure, blame it on that." He still didn't put me down. "You need to be telling us all goodbye, you know? You've got to stop standing over here like an antisocial butterfly."
"Don't suggest animals to her, Trevor. She will take you seriously and become them." Reece laughed at his words.
"A butterfly is an insect, Daddy, not an animal." Talia corrected him.
"HAHAHAH! That's priceless." Trevor laughed again and sat me on my feet. "Come here Princess." Trevor held his arms out and got Talia who smiled shyly then walked over to him. She actually let him pick her up and hold her though, so that was good.
I stopped standing all alone after that. I said my goodbyes to Aunt Glory, Trevor (though he was still laughing) Athair mòr, Daci, Torben, Lilly, Rose, and even some of their attendants that we had gotten to know recently.
I hate to say this, but I was glad then it was all over. I needed to rest and sit in a dark room by myself or something. There had to be some way to make that voice stop whispering into my ear.
I couldn't do that, though. After everyone left, we all had dinner together as a family and my kids wanted me to read to them again. I had done it at bedtime almost everyday since I went on 'vacation' and I wasn't going to skip it now. It was just one more thing to add to what I was going to be doing every day.
By the time that I managed to get to my room, I was so exhausted that I just collapsed onto my bed and curled up on my side. I couldn't get up again even if I wanted to.
Reece curled up with me, holding me in his arms and making me feel somewhat better.. That was the last thing that I remember from that night.
