“After that, I started to try keeping Peter back, so that he could not go out and hurt my males. I even actively seduced him…” The female’s gaze remained blank, as if talking about something that had happened to a third party. She had distanced herself from the matter so that it wouldn’t hurt so much.
“It was then that I conceived Elvis.” At the mention of Elvis, the female subconsciously gazed towards the entrance of the cave. A pity there was nothing there.
“Although I don’t love Peter, it was still my first pregnancy and I was very happy. But Peter forced me to choose between my child and my remaining partners. He said if I wanted to save my partners, I had to mate with him until I miscarried. If I wanted to keep the child, he would immediately leave the cave until I gave birth… but the price of it was that the remaining two marks on me would definitely disappear.”
Gu Mengmeng frowned. Even with the present-day mentality towards marriage, she could still understand his strong aversion towards other males. But to mate until she miscarried, wasn’t this too depraved? Moreover, the unborn child was his own flesh and blood.
The female didn’t seem to notice Gu Mengmeng’s expression. Or rather, she did not care how Gu Mengmeng reacted. She just needed an outlet to vent all the frustrations she had been forced to keep inside her all these years.
“I was selfish in the end. I wanted to keep my child. So that night… the two marks on me disappeared at the same time. I had prayed continuously that the two of them could escape, but they still died.”
“For the sake of my unborn child, I forced myself to live on. I must live on! So regardless of how much I vomited or how painful it was, I gritted my teeth and persevered.”
“But he… took all my children away before they were even a month old. I was imprisoned in this cave with no chance to see any daylight. Just so that I could see my child, I forsook my dignity and tried my best to ingratiate myself to him. But all I got in return were death notifications, one after another. Six wolf pups until only Elvis was left. He continuously used Elvis to threaten me. If I caused him even the slightest bit of displeasure, he would torture Elvis… I didn’t even dare to die.”
“During the monsoon season, I finally know that my Elvis is powerful enough and would not be easily harmed by him. I can finally let go of my worries… finally gain release.”
“He killed my partner and my sons and imprisoned me here to torture and ravage. While for me… after so long in here, even my hatred has withered. True despondency is when even the desire to kill him in revenge has vanished. In this world, there is nothing left that will hold me back. Be it love or hate, there is nothing left…”
Gu Mengmeng listened quietly and without interruption until she finished her narration. Thereafter, the female slowly closed her eyes and remained still. She bore a resigned expression, as if she only had death to look forward to. Gu Mengmeng then spoke with some tentativeness, “Perhaps, I can bring you away. I can bring you to Saint Nazaire to live with Elvis and I… if so, are you willing?”
The female’s lashes fluttered. Gu Mengmeng’s words were like a tiny rock thrown into the calm lake of her heart, triggering multiple ripples.
But the ripples quickly faded away. She shook her head. “No need. It will be winter after this rainy season… I will gain release then.”
