Shangguan Wan’s eyes constricted a little.
All of her blood froze, it felt like time had stopped at that moment.
Swallowing, she tightened her grip on the blanket, before she released her hold and then tightened her hold once more. After she did it a few times, she finally found her own voice. “Did you find his body?”
Actually, everyone understood that if the weaponry was bombed, not only would no one be alive, their bodies would be turned into ashes as well, and would never be found.
She knew all this, but…
Bo Yan’s throat bobbed, his voice was low and hoarse. “The place has become a waste land after the explosion and being burned down by the fire.
Shangguan Wan closed her eyes, her pale face completely tense.
The room fell into a dead silence.
Bo Yan stared at Shangguan Wan, who had her eyes closed, her lashes fluttering nonstop. He said softly, “Cry if you want to!”
Shangguan Wan shook her head.
She opened her eyes, which were completely red and glistening, though she didn’t shed a single tear. “Although he’s a Prince, he’s a soldier as well. Soldiers must be prepared to sacrifice their lives for their country anytime! He’s an honorable and noble man that deserves my pride for him! I’m proud of him!”
Bo Yan pursed his lips tightly. “I have a video from when he asked me to meet him privately before we went to catch the Prince that he told me to record. He told me to delete it after, but I didn’t. Do you want to see it?”
Shangguan Wan looked up at Bo Yan, her pale lips quivering a little. “Did he tell you to delete the video because he didn’t want me to see it?”
Bo Yan’s eyes darkened. “He said that he did something to you that cannot be forgotten. He’d rather you hate him for life, than miss him anymore!”
Hearing Bo Yan say this, Shangguan Wan’s heart panged with an overwhelming pain.
If she still didn’t understand that he had brought her to the base and hurt her in order to avoid suspicion and gain the Prince’s trust, she was really a fool!
What he did those few days really did make her angry and hate him!
She hated him!
She didn’t hate him for herself, but more for Bo Yan and their sacrificed comrades. She really thought that he had killed them!
Later, when she saw Bo Yan appear, she understood immediately that the hour he talked to Bo Yan for was definitely to devise this plan!
If he was still alive, she would definitely be angry at him!
But now, could she still be angry?
All she felt was headache and sadness!
However, as a soldier herself, she deeply understood that this was where their duty lay!
He had made an honorable sacrifice and she was proud of him!
Shangguan Wan took a deep breath, saying to Bo Yan quietly, “Please show me the video!”
Bo Yan took out his phone and played the video recorded that night.
Shangguan Wan took the phone.
In the video, Ye Yanfeng was leaning against a dim yellow street lamp. He was wearing a black leather jacket that day, with a cigarette in his mouth. He probably wasn’t used to recording videos, so when he faced the camera, his eyebrows were furrowed slightly. Together with his devilishly handsome face, he looked a little arrogant.
However, he eased his eyebrows very quickly and took out the cigarette between his lips. Lifting his hand to brush his fringe a little, he coughed once and said, “When you see this video, I might not be alive anymore. I don’t like to say sad things, and don’t think that there’s anything to be sad about either. People will die eventually. When I chose to do this, I actually had to muster a lot of courage…”
He laughed, looking extremely like a gangster. “After all, it’s been so long since we met. I still haven’t slept with you. Tsk tsk, I quite miss that period of time when I went to Yukou Border to find you.”
Shangguan Wan pursed her lips tightly. Hearing him say all of these made her heart twist in a way that was both bitter and sweet, stuffy yet shy, all of the conflicting emotions interlacing with each other.
I won’t cry, I won’t!
Though she said that she wouldn’t cry, but as she stared at him in the video, her eyes still turned red and moist.
“Wanwan, actually, I’ve been thinking about what’s so good about you exactly. It’s not like you’re the prettiest or have the best figure. You’re also fierce and not feminine at all. But what do I do? I feel like I’ve been put under a spell by you. All of the other women are no longer attractive to me. In the last few years we agreed to not contact each other, I even wanted to find a woman who was similar to you. Say, do you think I’m a masochist?
“I probably owed you in my previous life. I clearly have a thing about virgins, but I never despised you for not being one, never despised you for having a child and when you smiled at me, I felt like the entire world had brightened up. I was so happy I felt like flowers were blooming in my heart. When you were mean to me, I want to tear you apart terribly, but I couldn’t bear to do it in the end, so I could only be angry at myself.
“Shangguan Wan, it’s so tiring to love someone. I want to stop loving, so you should stop too. Once I’m gone, please find a man that will be good to you. Forget me and take good care of yourself. Just treat me as an interlude in your life!”
At the end of the video, he looked down and started to smoke again.
Once the video was done playing, Shangguan Wan felt cold on her face. She lifted her hand up, touching the salty, bitter tears streaming down her face.
She had cried.
She originally thought that she could control her emotions, but she could not at all.
She didn’t cry out loud, merely gritting her teeth as only her tears fell and covered her face without holding back.
Bo Yan walked forward, passing a few tissues to Shangguan Wan.
Shangguan Wan took the tissues, before she said hoarsely, “Thank you. Can you send me a copy of the video?”
“No problem.”
Shangguan Wan remained hospitalized for two more days.
The servant that was taking care of Little Xingxing at Yukou Border called her, telling her that Little Xingxing’s high fever wasn’t going away and that the boy had been calling for his mother.
When Bo Yan came to the hospital to visit Shangguan Wan once more, Shangguan Wan had already settled the discharge procedures.
“I’m taking a flight back to Yukou Border in the afternoon. Does Sihan have any news?”
Bo Yan stared at Shangguan Wan. Although he couldn’t really read any emotions from her expression, her bloodshot eyes and the dark shadows under her eyes were telltale signs that she definitely had not rested well in the last two days.
However, she was a female general. She could only hide all of the pain and tears in her heart.
“We have news already. Nan Zhi and him found Xiaojie and should be able to return by tonight!”
Shangguan Wan nodded. “That’s good. However, there’s something at Yukou Border that I have to go back to settle right now. After Sihan is back, help me tell him that I will email him regarding the administrative matters once I’m back!”
“Alright, take care and be safe.”
…
Not too long after Bo Yan left the hospital, Shangguan Rao came over.
Shangguan Rao had heard from her father about what happened with the Prince.
“Sister, how’s Brother Yanfeng? I called him, but it never went through. Where did he go?”
Shangguan Wan supported herself with her cane. Staring at her younger sister who didn’t even ask about her at all, she tried to hold down the disappointment in her heart. Instead, she replied with red eyes, “He’s not here anymore.”
Shangguan Rao screamed in disbelief. “I don’t believe it! Sister, why are you lying to me?”
Looking back at her distraught sister, Shangguan Wan said calmly, “Why would I lie to you about such a thing?”
