Translator: Henyee Translations Editor: Henyee Translations
Under the gaze of Ye Xiao and Jun Yinglian, Xuan Bing bit her lower lip and said, “I am an orphan… Nobody loves me since I was a baby… Nobody cares for me… I grew up on my own. Only I myself know the difficulty of living such a life…
“Every time when I saw other kids staying in their parents’ arms, asking for things in a spoiled way, crying for not getting what they wanted… I was jealous of them…
“I even wanted to rush over and punch them… They already had parents. They had families. Yet they still weren’t satisfied about it! They actually asked for more! Shouldn’t it be the happiest thing in their lives to be embraced by love from their parents?
“Yet they were spoiled… They cried… They asked for more…
“Wasn’t it too much to ask?
“However, I didn’t do anything I wanted to. After all, I am an outsider, a stranger. I could only watch them with envy. I just watched those parents lovingly buy everything their kids wanted… The parents started laughing when those kids cracked a laugh… They didn’t care how much they had spent for the smile of their kids… Perhaps they had to get through some tougher days because of what they had just bought…
“Nobody gave me that…
“Affection in families is something I can never have. I have been jealous of those who have it for so many years… When I met master in the Land of Han-Yang, I saw the deep love from master’s father… I yearned for it.
“Now I know that master is just the same as me, a poor lonely person. It turns out master has a special background.”
Xuan Bing lowered her eyelids and said, “Master was hurt in the Ye Clan… by his father and mother… I understand how sad and unforgettable it is to be hurt like that, but I am still jealous.
“Master is sad and grieved. There is no way to vent the bitterness… That is true. However, he had it once… He enjoyed it…
“I have never experienced the same happiness ever, not to mention losing it…”
Ye Xiao’s eyes shined with some special glow. Comparison made a difference.
[I have been feeling sad and angry about how things were unfair to me, moaning about how much I have done for the identity of a member of that family, and how I eventually became nothing. However, compared to Bing’er, I am such a lucky person!]
[I had it once! I experienced it! I enjoyed it! I had the love from my families once. It was precious, and I will never forget it. Yet I have been complaining about it! I was such a fool!]
Xuan Bing said, “You have no idea, master. There is something else about you that makes me most jealous…” She took a deep breath and said, “You have experienced something that you eventually lost, so you were hurt… However, have you forgotten what you have told me several times before…
“About… About your birth parents.
“You said it many times that you could feel them alive. They are still alive somewhere.
Xuan Bing’s eyes turned red, and she said, “Do you know how happy you should be, just to have such feeling?
“Master, you have an outstanding spiritual sensation. Your feelings always turn out to be right. I never had such feelings ever… My parents must have died. Maybe they died when I was born…
“Master, you have such a feeling, which brings you hope and happiness.
“As long as there is hope, there are opportunities to make it come true. Is it the most precious thing in the world?
“It would be happy to even… hate them. You can hate them for abandoning you. You have them alive to hate. Someday when you find them, you can just frankly ask them with grief. Why did you abandon me?
“As for me, I don’t have that kind of chance.
“I want to find my parents and ask them too, Why did you abandon me?”
Tears kept pouring down her pretty face. She kept her head low, lowered her eyelids, quietly said, “If possible, I want to know why they had to abandon me. What is their reason? Is it that they didn’t want a girl? Did they give me up to protect me from their enemies? Were they so poor that they had to abandon me? Was it any other reason? I just want an answer. I don’t care what the truth is. I wish I can have it!
“However, I am never going to get it.
“However, you still have hope. You could ask for it. You could find them. You are going to know why they did it. You get to know whether they have regretted about it… You will know whether they have tried to find you back…
“To have the parents worrying… is the biggest happiness for the children!
“Comparing to that, the pain and bitterness were just like nothing. You just think that you have done too much… You can’t accept the fact that they didn’t need you anymore. That is all, isn’t it?”
Xuan Bing raised up her head looking at Ye Xiao. “In fact, if you want my opinion… I think this is the best result you can get.”
Ye Xiao looked at Xuan Bing in a daze and murmured, “The… The best result I can get?”
Apparently, Ye Xiao was confused about it. He couldn’t understand why she had such a conclusion.
“That’s right. This is the best situation.” Xuan Bing nodded and said, “Let me ask you… If Ye Nantian and Yue Gongxue approved you as their son, a member of the Ye Clan… What would you do when you meet your birth parents?
“When that day comes, you will be in a more difficult situation which you cannot free yourself from.
“You can’t leave this side, yet you can’t ignore the other…
“Now, you have given the Ye Clan power to rise, even planned everything they needed in the future. Ye Clan’s young generation only need to put some efforts to rise up on the top of the world.
“You fulfilled the aspiration of Ye Clan and solved the enmity among the clan members.
“All Ye Clan people have reached a cultivation level that they couldn’t even have dreamed of because of your supreme dan beads.
“Perhaps you think you couldn’t face Ye Nantian and his wife because you owe them. Do you really owe them anything? You are the reason why Ye Nantian could return to his prime in cultivation, even stronger than he has ever been. You are the reason why Yue Shuang and Yue Han would help the couple with their reunion. You gave them dan beads that keep them young and powerful, so they can have another child soon in the future.
“The flaws in their lives, whatever they are, you fixed them all.
“If not for you, even if they had ten million years more to try, they couldn’t have done any.
“You have done the best you could.
“You have done nothing to be ashamed of over this matter. You don’t owe them anything.
“Even though you have taken their boy’s body, it was a coincidence! You are not ashamed!
“Since you didn’t do anything wrong, you shouldn’t regret.
“Memory will fade, the pain in your heart will go, and the wound will heal.
“In fact, I think that the pain is…” Xuan Bing looked at Ye Xiao and said, “The pain is for the happiness in the future, master. Happiness is waiting ahead.”
“The pain is for the happiness in the future…” Ye Xiao murmured, and his eyes were lighting up.
He didn’t notice that Jun Yinglian was giving a thumb up to Xuan Bing. [Brilliant! Well done!]
Xuan Bing bitterly smiled.
[I said those words not because I am brilliant, but because I was telling the truth… Those were my real thoughts.]
Ye Xiao thought for a long time, and eventually dejectedly said, “Even if I find my birth parents, so what? Look at me. I am not in the same body anymore. I don’t share blood with them. I have no blood bond to my parents anymore…”
“How are they supposed to know your real face? It has been so many years!” Jun Yinglian said, “Besides, you still feel their existence. That is the true bond between you and your parents. They must be somebody extraordinary since they can live for such a long time. They have their way to recognize for sure.”
Ye Xiao rubbed his jaw and lit up his eyes. After a while, he said, “Well, how can you be so sure… that my birth parents are in the Human Realm Upon Heavens, not in the Qing-Yun Realm?”
“Well, that…” The two ladies didn’t know what to say.
They had no idea. How could they tell anything that they didn’t know?
Xuan Bing rolled her eyes and then confidently said, “They must be in Human Realm Upon Heavens. There is no doubt!”
Ye Xiao’s eyes lit up some profound lights. “Why is it?”
“Because… Because…” Xuan Bing kept rolling her eyes and trying to think of some reasons. Suddenly, she was enlightened, so she hurriedly said, “First of all, you feel them. They are alive. If your feeling is right, then it is the only thing that we can dig deeper into and know that they are still alive.”
“Of course. My feeling is never wrong.” Ye Xiao nodded to confirm.
“Let’s assume it is true. You have lived hundreds of years as the Xiao Monarch. Well, they should have lived longer than you, which means they are incredibly powerful in cultivation to stay alive for such a long time… Am I right?” Xuan Bing was thinking more and more clearly.
“That’s right.” Ye Xiao admitted.
“You grew up in Qing-Yun Realm, which means your parents are very likely natives in Qing-Yun Realm. However, if they have been living in Qing-Yun Realm, and because they were so powerful, they should have found you a long time ago. Even though they couldn’t find you for some reason, you should be able to find them by yourself.
“Even if they abandon you because they didn’t want a kid, you, as the child, would never give up finding your own parents… You must have done it. You just didn’t get to find them…
“Therefore, here comes my speculation. They are very possibly not native residents in Qing-Yun Realm. They must have left you here for some special reasons. Maybe they just sent you here, a realm that they didn’t know ever for emergence. Maybe they wanted to find you, but they couldn’t, because the universe is too big.” Xuan Bing confidently said.
“Hmm… I guess… That makes sense.” Ye Xiao nodded and said, “Just a little bit far-fetched…”
Xuan Bing said, “If my speculation isn’t wrong, we have our conclusion. They are from a higher realm.
“Human Realm Upon Heavens.”
She almost applauded for herself when she finished.
She was pushed to put a square peg into a round hole. However, she eventually made up some meticulous theory… How incredible!
“Hmm… It does make sense at some point…” Ye Xiao was lost in thought, and he said, “However if they are in Human Realm Upon Heavens, how come I grew up in Qing-Yun Realm?
“I was a little boy… I couldn’t come down by myself, could I? If I was old enough to descend to the lower realm, I should be able to remember something, shouldn’t I? When I first remembered anything, I was about four years old. Did they send me down when I was four?
“Bing’er, you have been greatly improved, but you still lack in experience. You have no idea how difficult it is to travel through different realms. Traveling between two realms alone is not difficult for people like us, top-level Dao Origin Stage cultivators. However, to travel with somebody powerless, it consumes several dozen times more energy.
“To send a kid that has no cultivation power at all to the lower realm, instead of traveling with him, required a lot of power that was beyond imagination. As far as I know, only one person from the Human Realm Upon Heavens could do it. I met her when Su Yeyue and I encountered that deadly tribulation.
“That lady cultivator’s power… Even now, it is still unbelievable to me. However, that lady, Meng Ruoqing, must be one of the top cultivators in the Human Realm Upon Heavens. If my parents were as powerful as that lady, I can’t imagine what reason could it be that forced them to send me down to a lower realm!”
Xuan Bing suddenly froze. She should be much more powerful than Ye Xiao in cultivation, yet her theory had a big flaw that she couldn’t fix. She was speechless for a while, and then with sweats on her nose, she awkwardly said, “Well… Perhaps… I think we won’t be able to know the reason until we meet them. Everything is possible…”
“Hahaha…” Ye Xiao and Jun Yinglian laughed loudly together.
Jun Yinglian smiled and said, “The universe is boundless… There are a lot more powerful figures than you can imagine. How can you be so sure that your parents are not some super powerful cultivators? You agreed with Bing’er at least ninety percent, yet you still teased her like this… That is mean. You can’t bully her like that just because she is your concubine. You just ruined your own moral principle… I am speechless…”
Xuan Bing’s face twitched. She bit the lower lip and stared at Jun Yinglian.
[You little woman… Can’t you stop teasing me with the word concubine so often? Will you feel uncomfortable not to tease me with it…]
