“I feel like a zombie who need to sleep and eat three meals a day.”
People who have suffered psychological trauma when they were young, dismissed everything around them. The only thing that could touch their feelings was pain.
“Uncle, you are not worthless but you are just habitually denying your own value. Adults are used to destroying our self-confidence in various ways. Although you might not remember and although you might be dismissing it, some things have already penetrated deep into your bones and blood. Over time, denying yourself has already become your physical habit.”
“You see, for your sister, you abandoned your studies before graduating from university and came back from abroad to help her and protect her. Although you have completed that phase of the tasks, this does not mean that you no longer have anything to do with her. It makes sense that in her heart, you will always be her form of support and strength. You are by no means a dispensable machine. You are valuable.”
“For the people of X Society, you are their boss, you are maintaining their jobs, livelihoods, and to a certain extent, maintaining the order and balance in the entire entertainment industry. Everyone knows about X Society and everyone knows Ku Jie. That is your value.”
“For me, your presence itself is value.”
“Your breathing, your heartbeat, and your existence are all gifts to me.”
“Do you know what I mean? Value goes two-way…”
“To live every day seriously and with dignity is the greatest value to the people around you.”
“This is why, no matter how much my father ignores me, how much my stepmother abuses and humiliates me, or how much my mother denies me, I can quickly find myself. It is because I know that I have no value to them, but I am valuable to people who really cares about me, like grandma…like you…”
“It is meaningless in itself to prove your worth to people who don’t care about you.”
Ku Jie listened carefully to every word that Ren Xinghe said.
After listening to her, he thought he was funny, because needed 18-year-old girl to explain things to him for him to understand his own value.
The little star would be angry, sad, disappointed and resentful, but she would not lose herself.
Ren Xinghe finished speaking, as she leaned against Ku Jie’s body without moving.
The both of them were silent for a few seconds, and Ku Jie suddenly turned around, picked her up, and placed her on his lap naturally as she said, “Have you read any psychology books before?”
Ren Xinghe was surprised and nodded as she said, “I’ve seen some, as I am living in a high-pressure environment, and sometimes I need to have some motivation for myself too. Sometimes I am really afraid that I will try to harm myself.”
“Am I really that important to you? We…haven’t known each other for long.”
Ren Xinghe looked into Ku Jie’s eyes. His pupils were not black, but it carried a hint of chestnut brown tone, and it looked very beautiful and clear under the light.
Besides that, at this time, she suddenly reacted and wondered why did she get into his arms and why was she sitting on his lap?
Ren Xinghe’s cheeks were hot, and she nodded unnaturally: “Well, when I was facing my most difficult times, you reached out and grabbed me.”
“Then your feelings for me…is it because you feel grateful?”
“Of course not.” Ren Xinghe replied quickly, “Grandma has loved me since I was a child. I know what is meant by gratitude. It has nothing to do with caring, jealousy, uneasiness, or feeling reluctance. However, these emotions occur only when I face you.”
“I can understand worry, anxiety, and reluctance, but jealousy?”
“Do you remember when you came to the Game City? You don’t even know how many pairs of eyes were looking at you.” Ren Xinghe explained awkwardly.
Ku Jie suddenly came to a realization as he dropped a kiss on her forehead.
“You see now, I have money and status, but my heart is dark, traumatized, and my temperament is unstable. Are you sure you still like such a man? I’m eleven years older than you.”
“I like you.” Ren Xinghe raised her face and replied earnestly, “I’m only eighteen years old. I do not have as much experience in life as you do. The road I have traveled is not as far as the number of bridges you have crossed. I am afraid that you will not treat me as an adult and feel that I am not qualified and cannot stand by your side, so I am also anxious.”
This time, Ku Jie did not answer, but he simply pecked Ren Xinghe’s lips almost reverently.
“You will allow me to upgrade?”
“Allow.”
The both of them were intimate on the stool for a while, before Ku Jie let go of Ren Xinghe.
When the porridge was on the table, all the embarrassment between the both og them disappeared without a trace.
“Why do you think grandma is so open minded? She actually dares to let me stay out for the night!” Ren Xinghe couldn’t help complaint between meals.
“Because my character is precious.”
“Mehh.”
After breakfast, Ku Jie cleaned up the kitchen. At this time, Ren Xinghe was looking around his living room and saw a lot of his trophies and certificates on the display wall.
And there were three words on it, Jiang Muyang.
That should be his real name.
Then, his sister… it couldn’t be?
“Uncle.” Ren Xinghe suddenly shouted.
“Yes?”
“Jiang Yuning is your sister?”
Ku Jie: “…”
“I thought that you hated the entertainment industry and don’t know the people in it?”
“I don’t know much, just a few. Jiang Yuning is my idol, but now, am I her sister-in-law?”
Ku Jie cleaned up, dried his hands, and went back to the living room to look at her: “So, are you surprised?”
“I am fine. It is no wonder, you also have some of her characteristics.”
“For example?”
“Being a decent person.”
Ku Jie declined to comment, and he drove Ren Xinghe back to the courtyard.
However, when the both of them were about to enter the courtyard, Ren Xinghe’s mother hurried up and grabbed Ren Xinghe’s hand: “Xinghe, can you please regain your inheritance right? I can choose not to interfere with your life, but you cannot give up on your inheritance rights.”
Ren Xinghe threw her mother’s hand away as she had nothing to say with her.
“Xinghe, will I harm you?”
Ren Xinghe’s mother looked very haggard and it could be said that she stayed up all night last night.
This was because she knew that as soon as Ren Xinghe gave up on her inheritance, she would no longer be able to compete with her ex-husband, and the shares in her last hand would continue to be of no use then.
“It doesn’t hurt me and it doesn’t matter to me.” Ren Xinghe’s tone was still very light.
“I gave birth to you, so shouldn’t you thank me at least? I gave you life, so is this how you repay me?”
“You said it yourself that you regret giving birth to me.” After speaking, Ren Xinghe pushed her mother away, and raised her head to look at Ku Jie, “Let’s go in.”
Ku Jie glanced at Ren Xinghe, then at her mother, and before he led Ren Xinghe to push open the door of the small courtyard, leaving only behind the creaking sound of the door closing.
Ren Xinghe’s mother watched the two figures leave, and her eyes deepened a lot.
Who was this man?
Could it be that the reason for Ren Xinghe’s willful behavior during this period of time was entirely because of this man?
