“Ruoxin, can we be together?”
Gao Yi placed her hands at the top of her head, and his breathing had tingled the senses on her skin, leaving behind small goosebumps on her entire body.
“Can we, Ruoxin?” he asked again.
Xia Ruoxin red lips pressed tightly against one another. She thought of when she had no one to depend on, it was this man that helped her. He saved her daughter and took care of her. When Chu Lui wanted to snatch Rainy away, he was there right by her side. In this world, Gao Yi was the nicest to her. Without him, there would not be Xia Ruoxin. She owed him for everything, and she could never repay him back.
If this was what he wanted, then she would agree.
“Okay,” she whispered before closing her eyes tight as if she was enduring it and using her body to repay her debt. She did not have much to her name, so that was all she had if he wanted it.
The man’s breathing came closer to her ear, causing her body to shake involuntarily. Her body was rejecting, was scared… was shivering.
Suddenly, the pressure on her body disappeared. By the time she reacted, the man had already stood up to leave in the dim light.
Xia Ruoxin exhaled slowly. Somehow, she had cold sweat all over her body.
It was as if she had reincarnated.
She hugged her body close and exhaled the suppression in her lungs gently. Not knowing the reason why, she had a depressing feeling. Actually, she just did not want to admit that she was not willing to be touched by Gao Yi.
Was it because of herself or because she saw Gao Yi and Bai Luoyin making love with her own eyes? She could still remember the man and woman’s noises and the endless suffering in the fireplace.
She did not even know it herself.
That night, she was in a daze and constantly felt that someone was going to barge in. There was as if a beast lying beside her that was ready to pounce on her and bite her anytime.
It was only until daylight did she start to fall asleep.
In her sleep, she felt as if something was pressing against her chest, making it hard to breathe. No matter what, it was suffocation that she could not get rid of.
Suddenly, she woke up and opened her eyes wide; only to meet a pair of big, round ones.
She finally understood where the suffocating feeling in her dream came from.
Her Rainy was using her butt to sit on her mother’s chest, and both her hands were on her mother’s face.
“Mommy, Rainy needs to pee.”
Xia Ruoxin rubbed her eyes before sitting up straight. Of course, she did not forget about her daughter that almost crushed her.
She stepped on the floor barefoot and carried her daughter to the washroom. She placed Rainy on the toilet bowl and let her settle it herself while she stood in front of the mirror. Both her hands were on the mirror as if she was trying to find something in her face.
There was a faint green-black beneath her eyes, evident that she had not slept well the whole night.
Her face could not lie. She could tell herselftell others, but her own face would not. This face was expressed her reluctance evidently.
Yes, she could not ‘not admit’ that she was not willing
Was she not willing to be touched by men, or was it just Gao Yi? She did not know, but she also could not find another man to test it out.
“Mommy, I’m done.” Rainy’s voice interrupted her train of thoughts.
She walked over and carried her daughter before hiding herself under the blankets again. It was not yet five in the morning so she wanted to sleep a little more.
“Mommy, my doll.” Rainy rubbed her eyes. She needed her doll; she could only sleep when she had it.
Where was the doll? Xia Ruoxin also did not know where the doll went. When Rainy slept last night, Xia Ruoxin did not find the doll for her either. She stood up and started searching for the doll. After searching for one roundlet alone a doll, she did not find anything at all. In the end, she wanted to negotiate with her daughter to replace the doll with a pillow.
However, it turned out Rainy had already fallen asleep with a pretty doll in her hands, the doll that Xia Ruoxin could not find.
Xia Ruoxin placed her hand on her forehead. She had just wasted her time and effort.
She could not go back to sleep now so she took her canvas and went out to work as she could not possibly just wait for the sun to rise.
The sky outside was still dark. In the living room, there was a dim light that just nice shone on the canvas on her leg. With a brush and a stroke, her heart started to calm down.
She did not know how long she had sat there for and how long she had drawn for, but when the sky brightened up, she was still putting her heart and soul into her drawing.
“Oh, Ruoxin, you’re early.”
Once Wei Lan walked out, she had a fright.
“Auntie, you’re awake.” Xia Ruoxin kept her canvas. It was only then did she find out that the sky had brightened, and she should start getting ready.
“Yeah. I woke up earlier because I couldn’t sleep anyway.” Wei Lan was in a good mood recently, mainly because Gao Yi’s drug addiction did not kick in anymore. That night, she slept really well so of course, she was energetic when she woke up in the morning.
However, Xia Ruoxin was still suffering as she still had panda eyes.
“I’ll go prepare breakfast,” Xia Ruoxin said as she walked towards the kitchen. Just that, Wei Lan felt a bit weird as she thought that something was not quite right with the child. However, she could not point out what exactly was amiss so she did not take it to heart.
In the kitchen, Xia Ruoxin started to prepare breakfast for the whole family: milk that Rainy wanted and rice for the three adults.
“Sigh…” Involuntarily, she sighed lightly, even though she did not even know what she was thinking of.
She placed the food on the table, and Wei Lan had already carried a changed Rainy out. When Rainy was done with her breakfast, she had to head to school.
However, Gao Yi still did not come out. She bit on her chopsticks in ignorance; where did Gao Yi go?
When Wei Lan saw Xia Ruoxin’s unfocused look, she smiled to herself. “Why? Are you thinking of Xiao Yi? Don’t worry, he’s fine. He went out to do something and will be back soon. Kids these days, they are really inseparable.”
Listening to Wei Lan’s banter, she could only smile awkwardly before lowering her head and eating without a word. Luckily, he did not come; if not, she would have died of embarrassment.
Wei Lan brought Rainy to school. Now that she had found something to do, she had no time to think about other things. After a woman had left her husband and started a new life, she most definitely could still survive.
