However, his days of leisure were somewhat disorienting to him, or maybe, since birth, his life was destined to be cold and lonely.
He opened his eyes to a cold and lonely world, and one day in the future, he would definitely leave this world quietly by his lonesome self.
He had always been alone. For as long as he could remember, no one had ever moved his heart and entered his life; he repeatedly closed himself off to everyone else. There was once a beam of sunshine that shone into his world, so bright and warm, but alas, it had never belonged to him. He was a stubborn man, and once he fixed his eyes onto something or someone, he would not change his mind, not even until the end of his days.
The man suddenly raised the corner of his lips and said, “This is something you don’t need to know, but I want you to know that I’m not a scourge, so you don’t need to avoid me. Also, I heard that you’re getting married soon, so I congratulate you in advance and wish you all the best. At any rate, you don’t have to worry about me obsessing over you. I have my pride and self-respect; I know that you’ve made up your mind and won’t change your decision, so you don’t have to worry about me pestering you relentlessly. In fact, I’ve never done anything to bother you since the start.”
After a pause, he inhaled deeply and continued impassively. “Shishi, I have already let go of my obsession with you. I’m not the kind of man who doesn’t know how to let go or give up. As for Li Xiang’er, I’ll settle that matter if it bothers you. I apologize for causing you any disturbance because of my personal affairs.”
His words were distant, indifferent, and utterly decisive. He forced himself to spout all these, calmly and firmly, in order to make her believe that he had let go of all his obsessions.
After saying what he wanted to say, he slowly turned around and left without looking back.
Mu Xi stared blankly at his departing figure, and when she turned around, she saw her charge with her head lowered, her face devoid of any expression.
Saying that the actress’s face was devoid of any expression might not be apt as the woman was in fact struggling to keep her emotions in check. Her palms were balled into fists for a long time until eventually she slowly relaxed them.
Inwardly the assistant found the two artists to be a perfect match; if Shishi were to be with Xingze, she would be very happy, too, would she not?
She knew that the superstar was a deep and passionate lover. Sometimes, when one could not have the love of his life, the feelings of suppressing the obsession must be very painful, and she knew that.
The young assistant had once thought of how great it would be if the two thespians could get together, but she was not one to play a woeful cupid.
She could see that the actress was very happy and her heart belonged to someone else, so she could only give the artist her blessings.
Destiny could be cruel, it seemed; there were times she really wanted to ask the actress: ‘If you met the superstar first, would you choose him without reservation?’
Alas, there were no ifs in this world.
Yun Shishi recomposed herself, put on her make-up, then rushed to the film set to start shooting.
Unfortunately, she was not in the best of form as opposed to the superstar. Her eyes were distracted and vacuous. The director was unsatisfied with her performance despite a few tries.
By the fifth round, he went up to her and asked, “Shishi, are you out of your elements today?”
“Yes… I’m not feeling well.”
The director furrowed his brows in mild frustration and slapped his forehead, looking somewhat bothered.
