Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios
It seemed that even though he could get close to her heart, there was always a smokescreen blocking him, making it impossible for him to get near it.
“I… I’m alright,” Wang Juhuai said, looking at Xia Qingwei. Then he suddenly blurted, “I’m divorced.”
He really wanted to let her know it.
Xia Qingwei paused, her head blank. She forgot what she was originally planning on doing, and her whole body was stiff.
“It’s been ten years,” Wang Juhuai said.
“Why?” Xia Qingwei instinctively asked.
“Because I accidentally found out about the situation at that time. She’s close friends with my younger sister-in-law, and there was a time when the two of them were chatting and I heard them,” Wang Juhuai said.
Xia Qingwei trembled a bit, not wanting to hear any more.
She helplessly patted her legs. “It’s already late. You…”
“At that time, I did not do anything to let you down,” Wang Juhuai quickly said.
Xia Qingwei smiled uneasily. “There’s no meaning in saying these things now. I—”
Wang Juhuai grabbed her wrist. “I need to tell you this. Before this, I thought that you had gotten married and did not want to disturb your married life. Since you already had a family, why should I go add trouble for you? So even if I went back to the country, I did not dare to go see you, and I did not even dare to secretly look at you from afar.”
“It is because of that that I did not know you’ve been divorced for over ten years. I’ve also been divorced for ten years. The two of us have been single for so long. I don’t know if you thought about me during these last twenty or so years, but I’m thinking about you all the time. I’ve never forgotten you.”
Wang Juhuai breathed in, his voice a bit stifled.
Xia Qingwei trembled.
“At that time, the thing that you saw, you were tricked, and I was also tricked. She drugged me to make me sleep, and I was on the bed, not knowing what was going on. She sat on my body like that and pretended that she and I were…” Wang Juhuai did not know the situation at that time but still felt that it was disgusting. “That was what you saw. And when I woke up, both she and I were not wearing clothes and there was a pool of blood on the bed. I know that she had schemed to do this to me, but I could not get over it. I had yet to even touch you, but I touched another woman. I felt that I was dirty.”
“That medicine made me hallucinate, causing me to not be able to differentiate dreams from reality.”
“But I would not be together with her either,” Wang Juhuai said. “I never thought of marrying her.”
“Don’t say anything more,” Xia Qingwei said as she cried.
If he continued to speak, she would regret it. She would regret and hate it her whole life.
She did not want to hear any more.
“I want to say it. I can’t let you have a misunderstanding about me.” Wang Juhuai saw that Xia Qingwei was crying, and he felt extremely bad, but he still needed to say it out loud. “I bought medicine for her, the kind for after the deed, and I saw her take it. But after two months, she came to find me and said she was pregnant, that she had forced herself to puke it out.”
“Hahahaha!” Wang Juhuai laughed bitterly. “You thought that I betrayed you, and I also thought that I betrayed you. You are unable to forgive me, and I’m also unable to forgive myself. She looked for my parents and insisted on keeping the child. So we got married. Giving in in that situation was the worst thing I ever did.”
“Guess what happened next? After that, there was an accident, and the child was lost. But later on, I found out that there was no sleeping together with at all, no child. I was tricked by all the lies.”
“Stop speaking!” The more Xia Qingwei learned of the truth, the more pain she felt.
They had missed each other for over twenty years. How could she stand it?
She had even married another man and gave birth to a child for another man.
