She felt guilty about hiding her gender earlier, but she didn’t want her to attack sister Lin and the others, she wouldn’t kill her, as long as she destroyed the culprit behind Chen Xinyi, everything would be fine.
Chen Xinyi watched Feng Tianlan passed by, compared to her male outfit, she was much thinner now, the recent extermination of the Shen family and the disappearance of the Demon King had hurt her.
Looking at the thin figure leaving, Chen Xinyi couldn’t help but imagine her as Master Shen in the male outfit, the thin and desolate figure had a trace of tenacity, which made her heart ache, she couldn’t help but call out, “Master Shen…”
Feng Tianlan paused for a moment, she turned to look at Chen Xinyi, she felt a little upset, but she could only apologize, “I’m sorry.”
Chen Xinyi stared blankly at Feng Tianlan’s beautiful face, she could not relate the face to the delicate and handsome Master Shen, she broke down again at that moment, her eyes were filled with tears, she gritted her teeth hatefully, “Feng Tianlan!”
“I’m sorry.” Feng Tianlan nodded again, then turned and left.
Chen Xinyi looked at the slender figure, in the cold wind, her clothes fluttered, which added to her cold arrogance. That Cold Aura was the same as Master Shen that she knew.
“You may leave.” Chen Xinyi dismissed the imperial maids and stood alone in the pavilion, looking at the peonies blooming in the cold wind, her heart was filled with mixed feelings.
She had thought that this was a mistake caused by her persistence, after all, Feng Tianlan had coldly rejected her several times and even said that she was a homosexual. Even if it was not true, she didn’t take advantage of her feelings. She was infatuated and did wrongly, she even wanted to save Master Shen, she made herself a joke.
She wholeheartedly felt that it was her fault and she should not blame nor hate anyone, she could only blame herself, but..
Chen Xinyi felt exhausted as she laid on the table, recalling the days when she had found out the truth, she was like a puppet that lost its soul, her days were muddled.
In the end, in order to get rid of her unrequited love, she wanted to marry Shi Yiqing. However, she could not feel for him, she wanted to be with another man, she wanted to move on, but she could not help but compare them with Master Shen…
As such, she realized that those people could not even compare to a single finger of Master Shen.
Perhaps, if one really loved someone, there was no need to be so particular, there were many things that she could overlook.
As such, from love to hatred, her sorrow accumulated and turned into sickness.
Later, when she returned home, her father disregarded her wishes and sent her into the palace to be the chess piece that would balance the internal struggle of the imperial court.
No one loved her, no one cared about her, she was like a clown, only existing for others, she was humble like the dust, nothing changed.
Later on..
Chen Xinyi thought of the things that had happened over the last few days, she hid her reluctance in the deepest part of her heart. She raised her head, and the cold wind blew on her face, which made her much more awake.
She raised her hand and gently patted her cheeks, a.slight tingling pain made her soft heart harden, and her eyes became much more determined.
No matter what, she wanted Feng Tianlan to pay the price for what’s passed, she, Chen Xinyi, was not someone who could be messed with!
..
The exquisite yet domineering decorations, the nice and delicious food on the table were all things that Shen Qingdai liked in her previous life. In front of her was a portion of candied chestnuts, seated opposite her was Helian Huang, who seemed to have changed into a different person.
