Feng Tianlan felt as if a fishbone was stuck in her throat, Helian Huang’s gaze was like a needle, it made her feel uncomfortable all over., she was here to save sister Lin and Wang’er, but in the end, she seemed to have come to create trouble, more like giving them a stab.
Such feeling, made her feel like she was no different from Tu Xiupei or Shen Yunya.
“Dai’er, don’t blame yourself, I knew from the beginning that the emperor liked you, it was I who turned a blind eye, lied to myself that led to this situation.”
Xi Lin held Feng Tianlan’s hand and waved the Imperial Maids away, looking at the peonies that were blooming beautifully even under such cold wind, her heart felt like the cold wind had just swept through, the blossom of love in her heart had withered, left with desolation and nothing else.
“I’m sorry.” Feng Tianlan looked at her lonely and desperate expression and felt extremely bad, there was nothing else she could say other than apologizing.
Xi Lin turned and looked at Feng Tianlan, who was feeling very guilty and self-blaming, she revealed a loving smile naturally, just like the loving smile that she used to show her beloved younger sister.
“There’s no need to say sorry, in the past, you only had eyes for Jiang Ying, naturally, you couldn’t see other people’s affection, you couldn’t even see the unconcealable love of imperial brother, let alone the emperor, after your reincarnation, you only had eyes for the Demon King, so you couldn’t see anyone else’s affection.”
Feng Tianlan was at a loss for words, she had never thought that Helian Huang would like her, even when Shen Yunya mentioned it, she felt that it was just a provocation, she had never taken it seriously.
“Tianlan, you’ve lost a lot of weight now. I knew about the Shen family and the Demon King, I asked you to be here under such circumstances, I’m not blaming you for anything, I just wanted to save Wang’er, she’s being raised by Chen Xinyi, as a mother, I can’t even see her…”
As Xi Lin spoke, the tears that she had been holding back fell uncontrollably. The daughter that she had given birth to after ten months of pregnancy and labor, could only be raised by others, and she couldn’t do anything about it.
“I’m sorry. It’s all because of me that you became like this.” Feng Tian Lan narrowed her eyes, feeling even more guilty.
That’s right. The other letter was written by Chen Xinyi to her. Chen Xinyi had become Helian Huang’s Imperial Noble Consort, she was tasked to raise sister Lin’s Wang’er.
And all of this was Chen Xinyi’s revenge on her, as she had not revealed the fact that she had disguised herself as a man in time, causing Chen Xinyi to mistakenly fall in love with her for two years.
If she had known that things would develop like this, she would have revealed her gender in time no matter what had happened back then, in that way, such things would not have happened.
“Human hearts are hard to predict, Tianlan, if someone wants to turn bad, just a trivial reason is enough, don’t take all the responsibility on yourself.” Xi Lin’s voice was very calm and there was no resentment, her feelings for Feng Tianlan were still the same as before.
She knew that with Dai’er’s personality, she must have blamed herself, but shouldn’t Chen Xinyi be blamed for this?
Feng Tianlan pursed her lips and felt the bitterness in her mouth. “If I had told you earlier, things wouldn’t have turned out this way, and you wouldn’t have become like this.”
“Then, according to what you said, if imperial brother didn’t like you, then you wouldn’t have become like this. If I hadn’t married the emperor, things wouldn’t have turned out this way. If…” Xi Lin smiled bitterly, “There aren’t so many Ifs, there aren’t so many self-blame and apologies, the Xi family owes you too much.”
This time, she had selfishly asked Tianlan to save Wang’er, in the end, the Xi family had always been the ones who were sorry.
However, at this moment, she couldn’t bring herself to ask her to help save Wang’er, that would be too much damage to Dai’er.
