After leaving the dungeon, Xi Jin left with Shen Yunya. This was mostly because he didn’t want to have to look at her anymore. He wanted to send her back to Nanyuan as soon as possible and leave her to fend for herself.
Feng Tianlan was holding Si Mobai’s hand as they strolled slowly towards Si Feng Pavilion. She spoke slowly, “Mobai, getting betrayed by one’s family and loved ones is a really cruel punishment. It feels as if a knife is stabbing you in your heart and it’s being turned round and round, crushing a healthy beating heart into a pile of minced meat. It hurts so much that you will wish that you were dead!”
“Lan’er.” Si Mobai wrapped one arm around her waist tightly. His heart ached after hearing what she said. She must have felt endless despair and hopelessness back then. Despite that, there was nothing he could do but listen to her speak. Why didn’t he meet her earlier? Then she wouldn’t have had to experience such pain.
Feng Tianlan raised her head and looked at him. She chuckled as she spoke, “Mobai, although Jiang Ying isn’t my lover anymore, I had feelings for him back then due to my ignorance. I didn’t expect that the people who would betray me would be Shen Yunya and him. It felt exactly as I have described. It hurt so much that I wished that I could just die.”
It hurt more than having her kneecaps dug out or having the skin of her face peeled off slowly. That kind of pain came from the depths of her soul.
Si Mobai’s felt his heart tighten as she spoke. He wanted to comfort her but there was nothing he could do besides hug her even tighter.
Feng Tianlan stared at the coldness in his peach-blossom eyes. She chuckled. “Don’t worry. It was all in the past. I have gotten my revenge now and I have let the pain go as well. I just wanted to tell you that I don’t have any feelings for Jiang Ying anymore. I really think I have done enough to him. The betrayal and vengeance he felt just now was the greatest pain he could ever experience. It’s a kind of spiritual pain that cannot be compared to any physical pain.”
She wanted to let him know that the reason why she told Shen Yunya to stop was because she had already given him the worst punishment she could ever give another person.
“Are you explaining yourself to me?” Si Mobai lowered his head and gazed at her. A ray of sunlight was shining on her extremely beautiful face. Her curled lips looked like petals of blossoming flowers, extremely beautiful.
Feng Tianlan nodded. “Uh-huh. I am explaining myself to you because I care what you think. Although I am confident that our relationship will never be torn apart by misunderstanding, I still want to explain.”
She firmly believed in one thing: Even if the two of them trusted each other completely and their relationship could not be torn apart by such misunderstandings, she would always felt the need to explain herself to him. This was simply because he wouldn’t know what she was thinking if she didn’t express her thoughts out loud. No one could always know what another person was thinking. No matter how close they were, they were not a roundworm in that person’s stomach.
After listening to her explanation, Si Mobai’s heart ached even more intensely. “I understand. I am not doubting you in the least.” He felt sorry for her and blamed himself for not being able to do anything regarding this matter.
Feng Tianlan wrapped her arms around his waist and looked at him with a bright smile. “Alright. This conversation stops here. Let’s not talk about it anymore. Let the past stay in the past. We must cherish the present and plan for our future. I still have to find my parents as soon as possible so I can get married to you.”
Her only plan right now was to find her parents and get married to Si Mobai, then live a happy and peaceful life with him.
Si Mobai replied with a soft ‘uh-huh’ at the sight of her bright smile. “I have prepared my betrothal gifts. I am just waiting for—”
“Your Highness, Her Highness brought…” A bodyguard came in hurriedly. He was shocked when he saw Si Mobai and Feng Tianlan hugging each other. He asked with surprise, “Princess Consort, why are you here?”
Wasn’t the Princess Consort standing by the gates? Besides, she even had another man with her!
Feng Tianlan let go of Si Mobai and stood beside him. She thought what the bodyguard said was rather hilarious. “I was with Mobai all this time.”
