Bai Nuying sniffed and looked at a bowl of noodles on the tea table. She did not move and did not speak.
"You said you were waiting for Qin Gengxin. You know that he have a child and you know that he doesn't like you, not to mention that with Qin Corporation and Bai Group currently opposing each other as enemies, he still would send someone to take care of you. It's simply because he once treated you as his sister and now, it's also because of your help towards Qin Corporation. His grudges are very distinct. However, it is precise because he knows your thoughts that he cannot come to see you. After all, your willfulness is too possessive." Xian Guiying simply sat on the couch opposite her and pushed the bowl towards her. "Eat it. I won't poison you. Don't worry."
Bai Nuying would never have thought that Xian Guiying came here not to hit her or taunt her. But it was to say all these things to her. She looked at her expression.
Xian Guiying did not laugh, nor did she glare at her. She only looked at her calmly.
"Xian Guiying, are you trying to make me feel guilty by pretending to be magnanimous?"
Living here alone, the person who she was waiting for was not willing to come seeing her. When she slept alone at night, she would often wake up from the dream and cry alone while holding the pillow.
"Whatever you think." Xian Guiying said faintly. "I'd rather be honest with you. I really don't like you. The more I see you, the more I hate you. You can love anyone, but you can't touch a married man. No matter who it is. You think your love isn't wrong, that you are just a step too late. You become arrogant because you have a superior family background, education, and a lot of things that others don't have. But Bai Nuying, life is not always at the top. The man you like didn't like you and he is married and has a child. Do you want to turn your life upside down because of this?"
Bai Nuying stared at Xian Guiying in a daze.
"When you stole the evidence from your mother's hands and ran over here, did you ever think about the attitude Qin Gengxin would have towards you? Are you sure he is going to be with you because of what you brought? You want to use these things in exchange for love?"
"I don't know." Bai Nuying closed her eyes and buried her face in her knees, choking in pain. "Don't say it anymore. I didn't want to use that to exchange for his feelings for me."
"Then what are you waiting for?"
"I don't know." Bai Nuying immediately cried out. "I really don't know what I'm waiting for. I just want to see him. I just want to …"
"You're just missing him. You'd rather have a crush on him than love, but you have to leave this infatuation as soon as possible. Otherwise, your life won't get any better. It will only get worse as you go further and further. Our love in the real world isn't as exciting as those in novels and TV dramas. The reason why you play around like this is that you feel sad. You know what the result will be. But even if he comes, what can you do? Listen to me carefully. He only treats you as a sister. Nothing more and nothing less."
"Xian Guiying!" Bai Nuying suddenly let go of her knees and stood up.
Xian Guiying looked at her in indifference.
"How can you be so sure that he won't accept me? I've done so much for him. I've even offended my mother for him, so he'll at least be able to see my feelings for him. Maybe he -"
Xian Guiying calmly took out her cell phone and dialed a number. "I'll give Qin Gengxin a call on your behalf. You can personally ask him."
Seeing that she was really dialing the number, Bai Nuying immediately became frightened and immediately ran over to hold down the phone in her hands. She said with a panicked expression, "No!"
Xian Guiying looked up indifferently, "What are you so afraid of?"
Bai Nuying bit her lips and stared at the calm and composed Xian Guiying. "Why did you do this?"
Xian Guiying knew that Bai Nuying was asking her why she (Xian Guiying) tried to persuade her, rather than humiliating her and insulting her.
After all, Bai Nuying had offended her mother to fall under someone else's roof. Xian Guiying could bully her however she wanted, and no one would make decisions for her.
"Because you have indeed helped Qin Gengxin a great deal. Moreover, you have also paid the price. If I fought with a willful and obedient child like you, I would lose my 'Xian Guiying' demeanor." Xian Guiying seemed to be joking, but her gaze was looking straight at Bai Nuying,
Bai Nuying slowly let go of her hand. She stood up and turned her back to her (Xian Guiying), and looked out the window.
• • • •
When Xian Guiying left the apartment, she suddenly saw Qin Gengxin's car parked by the roadside.
As the car window rolled down, he looked at her with a smile.
Xian Guiying slightly raised her brow.
Did he come to pick her up, or was he planning to watch her fight?
She walked over to him but didn't get in the car. Instead, she leaned against the window and looked at him. "Are you here to pick me up?"
"What do you think?" Qin Gengxin chuckled and opened the passenger seat's door. "Let's go back and get Qianqian. We'll go out for dinner tonight."
"But my car is still here."
"We'll retrieve it another day. This place is not far from the Qin Corporation. I'll send someone to take it back tomorrow." Qin Gengxin laughed.
Seeing that he seemed to be in a good mood, Xian Guiying gave him a weird look before getting into the car.
"Why is your mood so good?" Xian Guiying tidied up her hair and turned to look at him. "I just fought with your mistress for 300 rounds and I'm so tired. Do you dare to be so happy? It's as if you found some treasure."
The corner of Qin Gengxin's mouth curled up as he turned the steering wheel, turning the car around. "When I saw you come out, my expression was relaxed. I knew that the knot that you had formed over the phone was finally resolved. I was happy for myself. I'm finally free from a grievance."
"She didn't say anything. I–"
Before she could finish, Qin Gengxin gently held her hand.
He drove with one hand on the steering wheel. His eyes were staring straight ahead. With the other hand, he tightly held her hand. "Guiying, if it weren't for her, you would have actually believed me, right?"
Xian Guiying looked down at their intertwined hands. After a moment of silence, she said, "I don't know."
At that time, her mood had already reached its lowest point. Otherwise, she wouldn't have brought her child back to China to relax. A dozen years of love finally forced her into a corner, and she really didn't know whether she would have chosen to believe him back then or not.
However, even if she chose not to mention it, after listening to Qin Gengxin's question, she could only give a slight grunt of assent.
At least she knew that Qin Gengxin wasn't such a heartless person. Furthermore, there was nothing much going on between them. Qin Gengxin's concern for Bai Nuying back then was because he treated her like a child, and coupled with the fact that Mrs. Bai was eyeing Qin Corporation covetously, he definitely chose to have a good relationship with them, so that Mrs. Bai would be slightly less guarded, and that he would have some opportunities to fight back.
Xian Guiying understood that very well.
It's just that when a person was sad and when their child was too ill, and when they were at a dead-end, the despair at that time was truly terrifying.
