This was the first time Qin Gengxin kissed her on his own accord and the first time in years he had kissed her while he was still awake.
Xian Guiying didn't like to cry. However, everything that had happened in the last twelve years flashed through her eyes. She closed her eyes and let the tears fall into their intertwined mouths.
Qin Gengxin tasted the salty taste and immediately paused. He raised his hand and touched the bottom of her eyelid. Sure enough, he felt tears. The entangled kiss slowly turned soft, as if it was an apology and also as if it was expressing something.
Xian Guiying suddenly remembered that when her daughter was seriously ill, this man was with other women in the apartment. In an instant, a disgusting feeling spread all over her body and she pushed Qin Gengxin, who suddenly became gentle, away and began to retch.
Qin Gengxin staggered a little from the sudden pushes and his face immediately darkened as he switched on the lights. He quickly saw Xian Guiying leaning against the wall with a pale face, vomiting on the ground.
"Ugh …" Xian Guiying's legs felt weak. She could only prop herself against the wall, hoping she could spit out everything in her stomach. She felt disgusted.
"You …" Qin Gengxin frowned. Seeing her expression too unsightly, he tried to help her. "Guiying, does your stomach hurt?"
As soon as Xian Guiying's arm was held by his hand, she suddenly backed away and pushed him away. She got up from the ground and sat down at the nearby chair with a tired expression. She raised a hand to her forehead as she felt a pain in her head.
"What's the matter with you? If you're not feeling well, I'll take you to the doctor." Qin Gengxin patiently went to check her face. "Do you have medicine here?"
"Don't touch me!" Xian Guiying raised her eyes and looked at him with rejection.
Qin Gengxin's hands suddenly paused in the air. The concern in his eyes was clear. However, such concern made Xian Guiying feel even more disgusted.
What to worry about? They had reached this step, why should he care about her? Didn't he have Bai Nuying?
After all, Bai Nuying was a young and beautiful woman who had never given birth. Whether it's her figure or her appearance, everything about her was more interesting than anything else. She knew this. Xian Guiying always knew about this.
Thinking about everything that happened to her in the hospital that day, she suddenly felt like laughing. As a result, she actually laughed.
"You're the one who made me sick!" Xian Guiying looked at Qin Gengxin with a cold smile.
Qin Gengxin just looked at her before finally putting down his hand. The concern in his eyes gradually faded, leaving behind only calmness.
Xian Guiying clutched her chest and took a deep breath. The air was bad after the shop's door was shut tightly, so she could only pat her chest. Disgust in her eyes was deep.
Qin Gengxin didn't say anything and when he saw her face turn from white to red due to breathing problems, he immediately opened the door halfway. As he opened the door, he heard Xian Guiying's voice.
"You can go. I don't want to see you again."
He turned around and looked at her.
Xian Guiying didn't look at him. She closed her eyes, digging her fingers into her palms. Her ears were still filled with Bai Nuying's voice that day and the sound of the machine in her daughter's ward.
She couldn't forget everything that happened that day. Words by words Bai Nuying uttered to her, that's why she feels disgusted.
Even though they had divorced, it still didn't mean those twelve years' feelings and memories could easily disappear within time. Otherwise, she wouldn't feel anything.
What should have happened had already happened, and their relationship was wrong from the beginning.
"Guiying."
"I don't want to hear anything you say. Mr. Qin, please leave. If you are not here to hurt me or argue with me, then please have mercy and stay away from me!"
There was no sound from him. Xian Guiying thought that he was already left and slowly looked up, but she saw Qin Gengxin still standing there. The evening sun shone on his face and only then did she notice the green stubble on his chin.
They were no longer seventeen or twenty years old. They were a young man and woman in their thirties.
What remains between them after all these years perhaps only hates.
Qin Gengxin looked at her silently. Xian Guiying looked away and stood up.
"You can't even see my heart, even though we've already been together for a while." Qin Gengxin said.
Xian Guiying quietly picked up the handmade shawls from the piles and said flatly. "There's no need for me to see it clearly. Everything is already laying open in front of me."
Qin Gengxin nodded. "It's a good thing to let go of that obsession, but Guiying, you were once obsessed with that relationship. Now, you're obsessed with hatred. Have you really let go of it?"
Xian Guiying remained silent.
Qin Gengxin smiled and thought back to how she had retched and the disgusted look in her eyes. That was not acting, that was real.
It used to be her favorite, but now it was reduced to the point that it made her retch.
Qin Gengxin thought that perhaps, in this life, only Xian Guiying would do so. From the beginning to the end, he had always been such a failure.
The shop remained quiet for a while. Xian Guiying wasn't sure if Qin Gengxin had already left or not, she just stood there with her legs gone numb. With a sigh, she bent down to rub her feet, then turned around.
Qin Gengxin was no longer there. She looked at the counter and saw that the cowboy hat was missing, and there was a hundred yuan on top of the clip holding the hat.
• • • •
"You specifically came back to cook dinner for Qianqian and me these last two nights. Isn't this time the busiest and most profitable time of the night on Square Street? Shouldn't you be at the shop right now? What's wrong?" Wei Shanyuan asked with a smile while taking the meat on the plate.
Xian Guiying smiled. "Why are you talking too much? Just eat." When she said this, she gave Qin Wenqian some vegetables so that her daughter could practice eating vegetables to avoid her from becoming a picky eater.
She then looked back at Wei Shanyuan while taking some food into her bowl. "How long will you stay here? Why don't you come and eat dinner together with us during this time? Since Qianqian is here, I am not afraid that you will do something to me."
"What can I do to you? With Wei Zhengsheng on your side, what do I dare to do?" Wei Shanyuan grinned.
He suddenly wanted to say something but hesitated. After seeing his serious expression, Xian Guiying asked, "Do you have something to say?"
She served another bowl of rice to him.
"He found you?"
Her hand paused and she looked back at him.
Wei Shanyuan looked at her. "Did you meet Qin Gengxin? He really came to Wuyuan?"
Seeing that Xian Guiying didn't answer his question, he sighed. "It's been a year, he's really capable. I did not dare contact you for the past year, just in case the men he's planted on me know where you are. Not long ago, I noticed that those men seemed to have disappeared, so I thought he had stopped, but who would have thought…."
"If he wants to find me, he won't give up for ten years, let alone a year." Xian Guiying gave the rice bowl to him and said in a low voice, "If he doesn't want to look for me, he'll never show up. I can't blame you. Sooner or later, I have to face him. It's just a matter of time."
"You made me come to accompany you all night, was it because you wanted to avoid him?" Wei Shanyuan asked.
