“I’ve resigned already and I’m not looking for another job. What she thinks of me, has no use to me.”
The opening question seemed to have worked very well, it removed the tension of their first meeting outside the lab, and Chu Yunsheng also simply accepted the relationship between Wen Luo and Zhao Ling was true, he did not doubt it. In terms of why she knew he was preparing for the end of the world, it was very obvious. Whether people really cared about him, or some people just tried to ridicule him, after the day he quitted, almost everyone in the company knew the reason why he quitted, so he did not spend too much time thinking about it.
Zhao Ling had a complicated look on her face and she asked again, “why are you so sure that there will be the end of the world?”
Chu Yunsheng smiled, and he did not speak. He chose not to answer her question. Firstly, he had said similar things to other people so many times already, not only no one believed him, but it also increased all kinds of pressure on himself, it was not worth it. Secondly, he was not familiar with Zhao Ling, moreover, she came from that place, of course, he must be wary of her.
In the face of Chu Yunsheng’s reaction, Zhao Ling felt helpless. She was not good at dealing with people, but in order to approach Chu Yunsheng, she had been taking the initiative to find all kinds of topics, but unexpectedly Chu Yunsheng did not seem to want to talk to her.
‘Probably we are still not familiar with each other.’ Zhao Ling thought secretly.
Of course, unlike what people read in novels, she would not be interested in Chu Yunsheng just because Chu Yunsheng ignored her. As the top student of physical biology, she also studied the psychological activities of human beings.
After a moment’s silence, she jokingly said, “when I was studying abroad, I heard a lot of similar stories, and I was a little skeptical, so… Maybe, if I give you some money, could you also prepare some for me as well, so that I won’t be in a panic in case something does happen.”
Chu Yunsheng smiled and shook his head, “you are worrying too much, people, who like you, are the treasure of our country, everyone else could be starved to death but not you.”
Hearing what he said, Zhao Lin sighed again. Chu Yunsheng was still very wary of her, he did not want to disclose anything to her at all. If she continued asking the question, not only it may not achieve the desired outcome, but it would also destroy the opportunity that she had just established.
The car soon drove into a villa. After showing the documents to the guards, Zhao Ling’s look also gradually became very serious. It was no longer the humorous look she had when she talked to Chu Yunsheng earlier.
Before they stopped, she reminded Chu Yunsheng once again, “later on, let me do the talking, your current identity is a psychologist. Fortunately, uncle Song is away, otherwise, he may be able to recognize you.”
Chu Yunsheng nodded, even the tall, rich and handsome guy and that police could find him so quickly, there was no way that Song Ying’s father did not know anything about him. Maybe his entire family history had already been checked thoroughly by them.
Zhao Ling stopped the car, adjusted her hair, looked at Chu Yunsheng with her calm and pretty face and said, “when you see Song Ying later, don’t do anything that would make her react dramatically. If she can listen to your words, try to comfort her as much as you can, tell her to stay healthy and not think too much, okay?”
“Sure, I’m no fool.” Chu Yunsheng opened the door, and said, “I need to remind you, she may just want to see me, but probably will not listen to me. At that time, don’t shift the blame onto me. I am just an ordinary commoner, if anything happens to her, it has nothing to do with me.”
“I think she will.” Zhao Ling seemed to be very certain.
Two people got off the car one after another, Chu Yunsheng followed her to walk on a winding path towards a villa. At the same time, Zhao Ling seemed to talk to someone over the phone. Chu Yunsheng did not know who it was, but Zhao Ling was speaking in a very respectful tone, “mhm, yes, yes, it is one of my former classmates, studied psychology, and may be able to help Yingying. Sure, you can rest assured, I’ll be very careful.”
When she hung up the phone, Chu Yunsheng frowned and said, “Song Ying’s father? You already told him that I will be here?”
“The housekeeper won’t let us in without his permission.” Zhao Ling rang the doorbell and said.
After about two minutes, a forty years old meek-looking woman opened the door. She looked at them and said, “secretary Yang just called, you can come in, Yingying is upstairs.”
“Thank you, auntie Wang.” Zhao Ling said politely and then gave Chu Yunsheng a look, indicating him not to speak, and just followed her into the villa.
Chu Yunsheng followed her and whispered, “she is not Song Ying’s mother, is she?”
Zhao Ling took a look at the woman and said quietly, “Song Ying’s mother is in America. She will be back in the next two days. Otherwise, why do you think Song Ying can afford a Lamborghini?”
Chu Yunsheng gave her contemptuous look, ‘bullshit! You think I don’t know how corrupt officials transfer their money?’
Of course, this could only be said in his mind. Saying it out loud in those people’s homes was definitely courting death.
The heating was on in the villa, and it was not cold at all.
On the first floor, the living room and the piano room were on the right, while the dining room and kitchen were on the left. The staircase curved up the wall to the second floor, covered with a thick red carpet and it was spotless.
Around the wall hung some calligraphy and paintings, before the table, there were also some porcelains, but Chu Yunsheng did not know anything about those artworks, so he did not know how much those would be worth.
It was the smell from the kitchen that caught his attention, and without thinking, he could tell that it was fish that was steamed on the pan. His nose was extremely sensitive, especially when he was hungry.
“Let’s go.” Seeing Chu Yunsheng was not moving, Zhao Ling pulled him and walked toward the stairs.
Chu Yunsheng was feeling very uncomfortable staying in a high-ranking government official’s home. After he got upstairs, he quickly said, “I will wait in the corridor.”
It is a girl’s room, after all, and even if there is nothing to be seen, what if she isn’t dressed properly?
Zhao Ling shook her head gently and said, “It’s fine. Come with me.”
Then she went to the second door on the left and knocked on the door. “Yingying,” she said, “I am older sister Zhao Ling. Are you in there?”
Chu Yunsheng snorted secretly, ‘if she is not in there, then who are you talking to? Why ask those useless questions.’
Sure enough, there was no movement inside, but Zhao Ling gave Chu Yunsheng a look, and then slightly raised her voice and said, “Yingying, can you open the door, I brought Chu Yunsheng here.”
After three or four seconds, the white wooden door was finally opened slightly, revealing a pair of frightened eyes in the darkness.
In Zhao Ling’s signal, Chu Yunsheng cleared his throat and was ready to say something, but the door was suddenly pulled open, then he saw a girl in the white pajamas suddenly run toward him.
Chu Yunsheng subconsciously walked back a few steps, and retreated all the way to the opposite wall. However, the girl still did not let him go. She jumped toward him, buried her head in between his arms, while tightly embraced him. She pressed her whole body against Chu Yunsheng closely, not leaving the slightest gaps, as if his arms were the safest place in this entire world.
Chu Yunsheng quickly spread out his arms to show Zhao Ling that he did not touch her. But he could clearly feel that Song Ying’s body was shaking violently as if she was in extreme fear. She was clearly scared of something.
The heating in the villa provided enough warmth. Even the corridor was also very warm. Song Ying only wore a suit of very thin white petal-patterned pajamas. Through it, even if Chu Yunsheng had spread out his arms, he could still feel the tender and curvy body under the thin pajamas.
On the day of the car accident, Chu Yunsheng was worried about something else, so he did not spend much time looking at the girl carefully. When he was in the lab, the girl was wearing a loose white coat, so apart from her face, Chu Yunsheng could not see her curvy body. But this time, it was the first time for Chu Yunsheng to see Song Ying’s shapely and voluptuous body.
Song Ying had long slender legs, small and soft waist, smooth jade-like skin, and she was only slightly shorter than Chu Yunsheng. After she buried her face in Chu Yunsheng’s arm, Chu Yunsheng could smell the type of girlish smell in her hair.
Facing such a delicate girl, Chu Yunsheng did not have any evil thoughts, the girl’s powerful family was enough to make him stay clear-headed, not to mention Zhao Ling was still standing next to them.
Besides, the closer Song Ying got to him, the more he felt that she was in trouble. And this trouble was going to bring more and more troubles to him.
Chu Yunsheng tried to hold Song Ying’s tender shoulder and push her away from him. However, as if she did not want to leave Chu Yunsheng, she hugged even more tightly and she even wanted to use her leg to hug Chu Yunsheng as well.
Looking at the funny scene between them, Zhao Ling coughed a few times and her face was also blushed. She had to say in a low voice, “Yingying, don’t be afraid. No matter what you want to say, we can talk inside your room.”
For the sake of Song Ying’s face, Zhao Ling did not ask her to let go of Chu Yunsheng, this woman seemed very considerate, probably had something to do with her profession.
Chu Yunsheng, however, was very direct. He immediately said after Zhao Ling, while his brows were knitted together, “you let go of me first, then we will talk inside.”
But Song Ying did not seem to have heard those two people’s words. She still did not want to let go of Chu Yunsheng as if she was scared that Chu Yunsheng would suddenly disappear.
Perhaps the noises caused by them were heard by auntie Wang downstairs. They heard someone walking up the stairs and the voice of the housekeeper, auntie Wang, talking to someone on the phone.
“Okay, yes, yes, they just arrived, and now they are upstairs…”
Walking from downstairs to upstairs, it would not take anyone very long. If they could hear the voice of Auntie Wang, that meant that she was very near. Chu Yunsheng was extremely nervous. Zhao Ling had seen the whole thing, so she could prove that he was innocent, but if people from Song Ying’s family saw this, there was no guarantee that they would not think of something else.
What if the housekeeper, auntie Wang was like those old Chinese women, who liked to exaggerate things, then he probably would not be able to leave this place safely.
….
Chu Yunsheng really had no other choice now. He couldn’t afford more trouble. So in Zhao Ling’s surprised eyes, he gritted his teeth, picked up Song Ying’s legs and quickly got into Song Ying’s room while carrying Song Ying.
“What are you waiting for! Come in and close the door!” Chu Yunsheng turned around and said hurriedly to Zhao Ling, who was still in shock.
There was nothing wrong with the sentence itself, but it was said at an inopportune moment as if they were doing something bad.
Zhao Ling’s blushed face suddenly became even redder like fire, burning fiercely. Auntie Wang’s head could be seen faintly at the end of the stairs, so she hurriedly stopped the wild thoughts in her head, darted into the door and closed it quietly.
Chu Yunsheng let out a sigh of relief. “Where is the light switch?”
The room was too dark, and it did not look like Song Ying was willing to talk at the moment, so he asked Zhao Ling.
After the light was switched on, Chu Yunsheng went straight towards a beige-colored bed in the middle, suddenly pulled Song Ying apart and threw her onto the bed.
Hearing she let out a loud scream and want to get up again, Chu Yunsheng immediately covered her mouth, pressed her back onto the bed and hurriedly gave Zhao Ling a look.
Sure enough, there was a knock on the door, and then came the voice of housekeeper auntie Wang, “Miss. Zhao, is everything all right? I made you tea.”
“Mhm….” Zhao Ling hemmed while making gestures to Chu Yunsheng to signal him to deal with Song Ying as soon as possible. No one expected something like this would happen, if auntie Wang saw this, there was no way they would be able to explain it.
Chu Yunsheng also understood this. But what could he do? Apart from cursing Song Ying repeatedly in his mind, there was nothing else he could do.
The door handle was twisted, and the door was slowly opened. Anxiously, Zhao Ling stepped forward and wanted to replace Chu Yunsheng to press Song Ying onto her bed.
Being pressed down by her had a totally different meaning from being pressed down by Chu Yunsheng.
But what she and Chu Yunsheng did not expect was, that as the door was opened, and as auntie Wang walked in with a tea tray, Song Ying suddenly pushed Zhao Ling away, adjusted her pajamas, and walked passed Zhao Ling and Chu Yunsheng with a cold look.
She went straight to auntie Wang, and said coldly, “auntie Wang, let me do it, you can prepare dinner now, and without my permission, please don’t come into my room again.”
Auntie Wang looked at Song Ying with surprise. In the face of her indifferent eyes, her heart suddenly tightened, but she did not say anything, she just placed the tea tray on a glass table with a tender smile and then left the room.
Chu Yunsheng and Zhao Ling looked at each other, puzzled, They were even more scared at the moment. This was clearly the symptom of mental illness.
Song Ying ignored the two cups of tea, which gave off a faint pleasant fragrance. She went straight back to the bed and looked at Zhao Ling and said, “sister Zhao, can you leave the room for a while? I want to speak to him alone.”
Chu Yunsheng’s heart instantly dropped. Fearing that Song Ying would have some strange behavior again and he might not be able to handle it himself, he hurriedly said before Zhao Ling, “no need, it was she, who asked me to come here, you can speak right now.”
He was trying to tell the girl that he was not willing to come here, and if she got anything she wanted to say, she could say to Zhao Ling, he didn’t want to be part of this.
Song Ying looked at Chu Yunsheng tenderly, but immediately turned her face back to look at Zhao Ling with cold eyes, “please!”
Zhao Ling smiled helplessly and nodded her head. Before she left the room, she gave Chu Yunsheng a look to signal him to follow the plan that they had discussed earlier.
After she left the room, Chu Yunsheng immediately found a chair to sit down far away from her and asked vigilantly, “you were pretending since the beginning? Tell me, what do you want? I am only an ordinary commoner. I really don’t know what you want from me.”
Song Ying approached him again, reached out her smooth jade-like hand and covered his mouth. Her fingers were slender, her skin was pale and glowed with light blue light as if it was transparent. Chu Yunsheng could even see the veins clearly.
“Who am I!”
Song Ying gradually moved closer to Chu Yunsheng, staring into his eyes, and asked a very strange question.
Chu Yunsheng frowned, slightly leaned backward and said, “what do you mean?”
Song Ying’s eyes were filled with bewilderment and a faint of longing, “can you please tell me who I am?”
She looked very strange as if she had been hit in the head during the car accident, and had some sort of memory loss.
Chu Yunsheng was a program engineer, not a psychiatrist. Seeing she didn’t seem to pretend it, he asked a test question first, “you are Song Ying?”
“No.” Song Ying immediately shook her head and said deeply, “take away this name, who am I?”
Take away the name? Her question made Chu Yunsheng very confused. But he still answered, “you are the daughter of a rich family. Your father is a high ranking government official, this?”
Song Ying still shook her head. She leaned close to the tip of his nose, looked into his eyes with her pleading eyes and said, “no, take the name, status, family, gender, all of them away, who am I?”
Chu Yunsheng immediately pushed her away. His brows were twitching with irritation, “I don’t care who you are, nor do I know, I know you are called Song Ying, we have only met twice, I think you’d better go to see a doctor.”
“You know!” Song Ying quickly hugged Chu Yunsheng’s hand, and pleaded, “please, can you tell me? Who am I? Why am I here? Why not the past, nor the future, but the present? If time is an axis, why am I on this axis right after 1994? Is it meant to be like this? Or have I existed before but I couldn’t remember it anymore? Your eyes told me that you know it, please, I’m begging you.”
Seeing Song Ying begging him desperately, and hearing the questions she asked, Chu Yunsheng was frightened, and the more he thought about it, the more frightened he was. These problems were too deep and too complex for him, but it also seemed to be the questions he wanted to ask.
“I, I don’t know what you are talking about…” He asked with shaking voices.
Song Ying grasped Chu Yunsheng tightly, bit her lips as if she used all her strength to ask, “if I died, is it me who would disappear, or is it this world that would disappear?”
Chu YunSheng had never thought of this question, nor did he know how to answer this question. While thinking, he took his arm out of her tight hug, and said, “I’m sorry, I don’t know the answer either, but I think, you are you, your presence is probably the reason why you exist, and everyone is probably the same, but no matter what, we should cherish it, I remember someone once said, life is used to perceive the world and the universe, this is the meaning of our existence. If there were no life in the universe, it would be meaningless. So, you don’t need to think too much about this question. Using the words that I always told my friend, just eat delicious food, have good rest, and enjoy every day of your life.”
Only until Chu Yunsheng finished talking, did he realize that the topic they were discussing seemed to be a little bit philosophical.
Song Ying seemed to be thinking about Chu Yunsheng’s words. She bowed her head down and said, “really? Does my existence really have meaning?”
With that, she looked up, and as if she had gathered all her courage, she asked, “is my existence really meaningful to you?”
Although it sounded quite strange, to appease her as soon as possible, Chu Yunsheng nodded heavily and said, “Yes, of course!”
Hearing his words, Song Ying seemed to have been granted the purpose of her life by some kind of authority. It seemed like, to Song Ying, Chu Yunsheng was the only one in this world, that was qualified to determine the purpose of her existence in the world.
This is not normal, and it shouldn’t be. After all, Chu Yunsheng is just an ordinary commoner. However, Song Ying seemed to be extremely certain, which is extremely bizarre.
Chu Yunsheng cleared his throat and said, “are you feeling okay now? I hope you can return back to your normal life now. I am just an ordinary commoner, your problems are too big for me to handle. Your father can easily kill me with just one word. So please just do me a favor. Okay?”
Song Ying quickly nodded her head obediently, stood up, clenched her hands into fists, and said, “I will protect you, and will not let others hurt you!”
Chu Yunsheng almost puked blood when he heard this. When he said that he wanted her to do him a favor, he meant that he wanted her to stay far away from him and don’t look for him again. But he didn’t expect that she totally misunderstood him.
In fact, Chu Yunsheng actually didn’t understand the real meaning behind Song Ying’s words. To her, Chu Yunsheng became the purpose of her existence.
Song Ying is alright now. But the question she had did not disappear, it is now shifted to Chu Yunsheng.
‘Who the fuck am I…”
