Wen Xinya failed to absorb Grandpa Du’s final words.
She was standing outside the study and his words kept resonating inside her mind. Grandpa Du said she had a less than five percent chance of conceiving. She felt like she had been struck by a bolt of lightning and a ringing sound echoed in her ears. It was clear she had suffered a major blow.
And it was no wonder. She wanted a baby. Si Yiyan appeared willing but offered all sorts of excuses to delay this, saying they were too young, that he wanted to enjoy time with just the two of them first. But he was just deceiving her. He already knew she had a low chance of conceiving. In order to hide this fact from her, he had used a delaying tactic.
She had always found it very strange. She had been prepping for pregnancy all this while and Si Yiyan was also very accommodating. They didn’t have any bad habits and they had a very healthy sex life. There was no reason why she still failed to conceive after so many years.
Previously, she had also mulled over her difficulty in getting pregnant but never expected it was because she had a low fertility rate, or even completely barren.
Wen Xinya squatted down on the ground, feeling her chest constrict so painfully that she could barely breathe. Large drops of tears trickled down onto the floor. Her lifelong dream had been shattered at this one moment.
The desire to have children had, in the blink of an eye, turned into a forbidden temptation. It had become a futile yearning that would only end in despondency.
She had always possessed a thirst for a family that was ingrained in her bones. Otherwise, in her previous life, she would not have been so blinded by the sudden appearance of family ties and ended up in such a wretched state.
And this desire of hers had not eroded even after her rebirth. Instead, it became even more deeply ingrained after experiencing her previous life’s pain. All she wanted was to have children with Si Yiyan, to support her husband and raise her children, to have a complete family.
She just wanted to have a product of her love with Si Yiyan. To have something that would bind them together forever.
She just wanted to be a wonderful mother like her own mum. To fulfill her mum’s lingering death wish.
Why did it turn out to be so difficult?
Wen Xinya turned to leave while still in a trance.
Uncle Zhang, who was downstairs, noticed there was something off about Wen Xinya as she was leaving and hurriedly asked, “Xinya, what’s the matter? Are you feeling unwell? Let me send you to the hospital.”
He was extremely worried on seeing her pale face and wobbly way of walking.
Wen Xinya snapped out of her trance and forced a smile, which looked even grimmer than if she had been crying. “Uncle Zhang, I’m fine. Don’t worry. Something happened at the office and I must rush back to handle it. Please help me tell Grampy.”
With that, she dashed off without even waiting for Uncle Zhang to reply. Her miserable back profile made her look like she was trying to flee.
Wen Xinya wandered along the streets aimlessly.
She thought of Si Yiyan.
He must have known of her physical condition long ago! On one hand, he had to soothe her desire to get pregnant, while on the other hand, he had to conceal her condition. Si Yiyan’s burden was no less than hers.
Meanwhile, she had just excitedly and ignorantly expressed her desire for a baby.
How worried, anxious, troubled, and uneasy Si Yiyan must have been?
Si Yiyan had made use of his actions to show that he did not mind having a childless marriage, but she herself could not abide by this. She truly believed that she would not be a complete woman if she was unable to bear children.
The moment a woman harbored the notion of having children, it would become a bone-deep desire.
Despite knowing she had a very low chance of conceiving, Ning Shuqian continued to consume Traditional Chinese Medicine, receive fertility injections, and undergo artificial inseminations. For the sake of having a child, she had doggedly continued these treatments for five to six years.
The pain she had endured throughout the entire process was not something that could be understood by any outsider.
“Wah…”
The cries of a baby snapped Wen Xinya out of her trance. She turned toward the source in a dazed manner, only to see a young mother pushing a baby carriage, which was the source of those cries.
The young mother changed her child’s diapers with a practiced hand, before hugging the kid and soothing it.
Wen Xinya couldn’t help going all teary-eyed as she witnessed this heartwarming scene.
This was her dream scene!
On an impulse, Wen Xinya walked over to that young mother and asked rather abruptly, “I… can I hold him?” On seeing the young mother hold her child closer in a defensive manner and glaring at her suspiciously, Wen Xinya hurriedly explained. “Your baby looks very adorable.”
With that, she herself felt that she had been too brusque and was momentarily at a loss for what to do next.
By this time, the baby was no longer crying but was staring at Wen Xinya with wide eyes, which were sparkling like black grapes due to its earlier tears.
Wen Xinya couldn’t tear her eyes away from the baby.
The young mother held her child guardedly and took two steps back, pushing the baby carriage toward an approaching young man. He was probably the baby’s father!
The two of them exchanged whispers before walking over with the carriage. The young man looked at her. “Hello, Miss Wen!”
Wen Xinya asked curiously, “Who are you?”
The young man scratched his head, looking somewhat embarrassed. “I’m a new employee who just joined Wen Corporation’s sales department.”
Clarified, Wen Xinya nodded and greeted him.
The young man then took the child over from his wife and pushed the baby into her arms. “This is my daughter, and she just turned a month old. Her name is Yuan Yuan.”
Wen Xinya held the soft and fragrant little bundle in her arms, her heart melting into a puddle of goo. After a while, she handed the baby back to her mother with a slight smile. “Your child is very adorable.”
Wen Xinya’s heart ached as she watched the family of three depart. Blackness and dizziness suddenly enveloped her and she swayed before collapsing to the ground.
“Be careful!”
With that shout, Wen Xinya was caught by someone. She blinked her blurry eyes and saw that the baby’s father had turned back and was looking at her worriedly.
Wen Xinya smiled weakly as she sat down on a bench by the street. “I’m fine. I just suddenly felt a bit dizzy.”
She reached up to rub her temples, to soothe her dizziness.
The baby’s father looked dubious. “Miss Wen, you… I think you better go to the hospital for a check-up. You look…” He paused and glanced at her extremely pale face before continuing. “Very ill!”
Previously he had wanted to head home, but his wife pointed out that something looked off about Miss Wen and that she appeared rather sick. Hence, he was worried and turned back to check on her.
Who knew that he would see her collapsing in a faint.
Wen Xinya suppressed her discomfort and gave a small smile. “Thank you!”
